~It make sense to you, keep on, don't stall~
To save myself from crying again, I already IM'd it. I guess I'll edit it to put more detail in it. I hate this season.
Maneki-Chan || The Oni Summoner! || says:
I'm not one to believe that EVERYTHING in life happens for a reason but a few things in life teaches you about what happens in life... So, I guess this was one of them. [Will make sense later]
Anyway. In the morning, me and my mum agreed to go to the shops to buy the ordinary stuffs. I didn't particularly wanted to go, but just to go for the sake of spending timeness. So, I went upstairs to cram in some morning revision for heading off and heard and saw that she'd headed off so I rushed outta ze door and ran in an attempt to catch her up but, me + chasing a car -> Not a good idea.
Plus, she'd already gone too far... So... decided to catch a bus, and got a bit... worn out and couldn't catch my breath as I'd ran. Was almost late for the bus so I ran again, across the zebra crossing... Yeah, the cars stopped, of course but I... tripped flat on my face... hasn't happened before but... it didn't hurt at the time. Forced myself to get up, then I dropped again...
When I get better at science, I'll explain why. I dunno why though. Felt like there was a force dragging me down. Again, I tried and dragged myself to the bus and got on the top deck and I remember there was this damn greedy lady with this dirty look... basically, the top deck was full but she had the seats to herself. Then looked to my right to see a seat free and counted myself lucky.
I had time to myself to look at my wounds... pretty nasty. And I remember thinking to myself when I fell, "Keh... I would've cried from the pain 10 years ago." But then I thought to myself, "Well... this is what happens when you run after love" and then cried. Got off to my stop at Tescos (I guessed if she'd be there...) and sat on the window... and just cried.
Many many people passed me... but only one person asked if I was okay. I was there for quite some time, actually. Then I cried some more since it made me think, "This is what happens when you run after love... but why would you, it causes more pain... and then this is how you feel when you wait for them and they never come...". I didn't really care about what others thought of myself...
But I still noticed it... the stares, the disgusted look when they saw my wound on my left knee... (was wearing torn jeans so it's visible) About 2 hours later, the same guy who asked if I was okay, who was a member of staff, asked me what was wrong. All I could managed to say was, "I'm hurt" and point to the wound... but for me, it was my wound of my mistake. My mistake of love.
I didn't think he got it. But he fixed it up and gave me a bandage for free. That was the only time I stopped crying and smiled. Because it was... I dunno, a kind love... a kind love that couldn't hurt. After, I went off, and bought more banadages before returning home. Still hurts though.
~~~
Blood's still running down my jeans. So, gonna go now. Ja.
~Xia-hime
Maneki-Chan || The Oni Summoner! || says:
I'm not one to believe that EVERYTHING in life happens for a reason but a few things in life teaches you about what happens in life... So, I guess this was one of them. [Will make sense later]
Anyway. In the morning, me and my mum agreed to go to the shops to buy the ordinary stuffs. I didn't particularly wanted to go, but just to go for the sake of spending timeness. So, I went upstairs to cram in some morning revision for heading off and heard and saw that she'd headed off so I rushed outta ze door and ran in an attempt to catch her up but, me + chasing a car -> Not a good idea.
Plus, she'd already gone too far... So... decided to catch a bus, and got a bit... worn out and couldn't catch my breath as I'd ran. Was almost late for the bus so I ran again, across the zebra crossing... Yeah, the cars stopped, of course but I... tripped flat on my face... hasn't happened before but... it didn't hurt at the time. Forced myself to get up, then I dropped again...
When I get better at science, I'll explain why. I dunno why though. Felt like there was a force dragging me down. Again, I tried and dragged myself to the bus and got on the top deck and I remember there was this damn greedy lady with this dirty look... basically, the top deck was full but she had the seats to herself. Then looked to my right to see a seat free and counted myself lucky.
I had time to myself to look at my wounds... pretty nasty. And I remember thinking to myself when I fell, "Keh... I would've cried from the pain 10 years ago." But then I thought to myself, "Well... this is what happens when you run after love" and then cried. Got off to my stop at Tescos (I guessed if she'd be there...) and sat on the window... and just cried.
Many many people passed me... but only one person asked if I was okay. I was there for quite some time, actually. Then I cried some more since it made me think, "This is what happens when you run after love... but why would you, it causes more pain... and then this is how you feel when you wait for them and they never come...". I didn't really care about what others thought of myself...
But I still noticed it... the stares, the disgusted look when they saw my wound on my left knee... (was wearing torn jeans so it's visible) About 2 hours later, the same guy who asked if I was okay, who was a member of staff, asked me what was wrong. All I could managed to say was, "I'm hurt" and point to the wound... but for me, it was my wound of my mistake. My mistake of love.
I didn't think he got it. But he fixed it up and gave me a bandage for free. That was the only time I stopped crying and smiled. Because it was... I dunno, a kind love... a kind love that couldn't hurt. After, I went off, and bought more banadages before returning home. Still hurts though.
~~~
Blood's still running down my jeans. So, gonna go now. Ja.
~Xia-hime