Okay seriously. What did I do to make you and robyn hate me so much? I just don't understand. I'm not obsessed. I suffer from Aspergers Syndrome. I have a hard time with interacted and having relationships with others, it's really hard. I have a hard time understanding social ques like this whole ignoring me thing. I fucked up, really badly, i did. But i'm not trying to hurt anyone anymore. I really am sorry. I feel like a criminal and there are times where I can't even get out of bed anymore because of this. I have no money left, no job, nothing. I've lost everything and I feel so distraught and the only thing in my head most of the day is why cant i fix all of my mistakes? maybe I'm not cut out for this life? maybe i should i just kill myself because i feel like such a failure if i can't even work out a relationship with another human being. a fucking friendship.
I'm not stalking robyn or have any plan attempt to hurt her, or anything. What I did to you and her was beyond inappropriate, so vile an gross. I hate that she calls me a stalker. It has a such a negative appeal to it, a harmful one and i feel like that label doesn't suit me at all.
I don't understand why none of us, you, i or her can work this out. It's making me so frustrated.
I feel so horrible guilty for the things i said and did. Again HORRIBLE GUILTY. I've alienated most of friends because of this. they won't even hang around me because they feel like i'm such a downer. I lost my job at hideaway because of that detective and vpo, which i don't understand why i have because again, i would never in a million years hurt robyn. she could stab me or spit on me i wouldn't lay a finger on her, it's not in my genetic makeup.
I can't stop crying as a write this. i feel horrible an distraught. Why can't i fix this? am i such a bad person?? Why can't you answer me or talk to me? I'm not hiding a facade or anything. This is all sincerity. no irony, or lies, no nothing.
People have hurt me too. Said the worst kind of shit to me. Called me a faggot. Beat me up for being gay. Made fun of my dead friends. Hurt me badly.
I have nothing anymore. no more friends, no job, no money, no happiness.
and and and Please tell robyn, to go to school and don't drop out. I never see her around and I don't want to see her fail. I want her to be successful and that jazz. You and her are super fucking smart, beautiful, and independent. I really look up to that too because well you're both older than me.
I'm not stalking robyn or have any plan attempt to hurt her, or anything. What I did to you and her was beyond inappropriate, so vile an gross. I hate that she calls me a stalker. It has a such a negative appeal to it, a harmful one and i feel like that label doesn't suit me at all.
I don't understand why none of us, you, i or her can work this out. It's making me so frustrated.
I feel so horrible guilty for the things i said and did. Again HORRIBLE GUILTY. I've alienated most of friends because of this. they won't even hang around me because they feel like i'm such a downer. I lost my job at hideaway because of that detective and vpo, which i don't understand why i have because again, i would never in a million years hurt robyn. she could stab me or spit on me i wouldn't lay a finger on her, it's not in my genetic makeup.
I can't stop crying as a write this. i feel horrible an distraught. Why can't i fix this? am i such a bad person?? Why can't you answer me or talk to me? I'm not hiding a facade or anything. This is all sincerity. no irony, or lies, no nothing.
People have hurt me too. Said the worst kind of shit to me. Called me a faggot. Beat me up for being gay. Made fun of my dead friends. Hurt me badly.
I have nothing anymore. no more friends, no job, no money, no happiness.
and and and Please tell robyn, to go to school and don't drop out. I never see her around and I don't want to see her fail. I want her to be successful and that jazz. You and her are super fucking smart, beautiful, and independent. I really look up to that too because well you're both older than me.
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