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I have a lot to say but first I want to get this out into the open if you already couldn't tell that I felt this way:
I loved Deathly Hallows
loved it
She ended it really perfectly to the point were I was happy that there was no more.
But first off I have to say out of all the people that died I cried for over two hours because of Fred
I was really lucky my parents were home at the time because I was near screaming, I was sobbing so much.
Though a good couple minuets of those two hours was for Tonks and Lupin, and a bit for Colin as well...
Not to mention when I positively bawled over when Harry was digging Dobby the grave for him.
But Fred...
I didn't even realize it really that he was dead until after I closed the book because at the moment he died it came as such a shock for me. Not to mention the fact that everything was going crazy at that moment, and when you did see his body again Harry was already running up the stairs to figure out he had to die...
NOW LET ME TELL YOU
I HAVE HEARD SO MUCH STUFF ABOUT THE POSSIBILITY OF HARRY DIEING AND I LISTENED TO THEM ALL WITHOUT MUCH PAIN OR ANYTHING BUT WHEN HE WAS WALKING OFF TO GO AND DIED I SWEAR
I NEED A BLOW DRYER OR SOMETHING TO GET THOSE PAGES OF THE CHAPTER DIE
Oh god...
I don't think I realized how attached to Harry I was at that exact moment when I went completely numb from reading Snape's memory (Lily/Snape <3 btw) and it took me a second to realize
"Oh my fucking god HE'S GOING TO WALK INTO HIS OWN DEATH!!"
OK LET ME JUST SAY
I WAS ALREADY SOBBING THEN TRYING TO THINK OF ALL THE POSSIBLE WAYS HE COULD GET OUT OF IT
BUT IT WAS AT THE MOMENT THAT HARRY STOPPED AND LOOKED AT GINNY DID I JUST FLIPPED OUT
I WAS QUITE HONESTLY SCREAMING WAY THAT HE COULD GET OUT OF THIS SITUATION
AND WHEN ... OHMIGOD... WHEN I THOUGHT VOLDAMORT HAD KILLED HIM
LIFE FLASHED BEFORE MY EYES
REALLY
IT DID
THE MOMENT I FOUND OUT HE WASN'T DEAD
YOU COULDN'T WIPE THE GRIN OFF MY FACE IF YOU HIT MY WITH A SLEDGE HAMMER
REALLY THOSE LAST 3 CHAPTERS
PURE HAPPINESS
OH WITH THE EXCEPTION OF THAT MOMENT WHEN I THOUGH MOLDYSHORTS GONNA GO AND KILLED NEVILLE
I WAS PRETTY MUCH SHOUTING AT THE BOOK
BUT IT WAS ALL LIKE
HAT=SWORD
FUCK YES!!!
BUT REALLY
FRED
after I put the book down and called the Newes and what that when it like hit me
Oh my god she killed Fred
I don't think I cried so much in my life
in fact I think I’m going to cry just talking about it
I keep trying to reassure myself that he died doing what he loved, you know, laughing, being reunited with his not git brother, fighting with his family and friends for everything he had ever believed it
but I still couldn't help but think that Fred was not there for the moment they had all worked so hard for, the moment that Voldamort died.
And I know its all blah de blah de blah about how Fred is happy now Fred doesn't need to worry about shitscum like Voldamort where he is now but then it makes me think of George
George
I mean, it must feel like he's lost like a part of him doesn't it?
It made me think of that Sokka/Toph fanfic where Toph had died and Sokka knew there would be no more Sokka and Toph like their had always had been
and wouldn't it be the same way for George? No more Weasley twins. Just George
I mean just god that must suck beyond all belief the fact that the person you have quite literally been with for your whole entire fucking life
is like
gone
But probably one of the biggest things when Fred died (other then the part that he died) was Percy
Percy the one who was constantly tormented by the twins.
Percy who acted like an idiot and ran off to join the ministry.
Percy who had not spoke to his family in years (not counting that brief moment in the six book that Percy did not seem to enjoy)
Percy who had been called the worst names out of all the Weasley children by the Twins
But it was Percy who had shouted when Fred had died, Percy who refused repeatedly to let go of Fred when he died, Percy who had charged after Fred's killer to avenge him
Really, I loved Percy right then.
but still... D:
It's really hard not to cry when I think of the twins and I don't think I could bare to even watch them in the movies or read a part they are in ever again. It would hurt too much...
ANOTHER THING BECAUSE YOU ALL KNEW THIS WAS COMING SO I BETTER DO IT NOW
...
OMFG RON/HERMIONE
ADASDHASJDASLKJDASKLJDASKLJDLKASJDLAKJDKLASJDAKLJD
OK IN ORDER OF THE EVENTS OF THE BOOK I SHALL TELL YOU THE PARTS I FELT MY TUMMY GO ALL WARM AND FUZZY WITH THE RON/HERMIONE-NESS THAT IS LOVE (despite the fact that I might be freaking out because of horrible situation they were in with death eaters/emotions/crap and all that)
1) HUGGING *sqee!*
2) HAND HOLDING WHILE SLEEPING
3) HERMIONE CRYING WHEN RON WAS GONE (omfg :'( )
4) RON COMING BACK AND RIDDLE SHOWING HIM THE VISIONS OF HERMIONE AND HARRY KISSING (ronnikins I love yoouuuuu :'( )
5) HERMIONE BEING TORTURED AND RON WAS SOBBING ( D: )
6) KISS
KISS
OMFG
KISS
ON THE MOUTH
FOR LIKE AN HOUR
DESPITE THE FACT
THAT HARRY WAS RIGHT THERE
AND A WAR WAS GOING ON
AND THAT HARRY HAD TO SCREAM BEFORE THEY REALIZED
"Oh haiiii Harry watch ya doing over theree???"
8D
HELL FUCKING YA
<3
BUT STILL NOTHING CAN GET PAST MY EMOTIONS FOR FRED
FRED
really
probably the saddest thing in the history of the entire world to happen to me
Fred dying...
I NEED MORE ICON SPACE SO I CAN ADD THIS:
D':
ohmigod why?