my daily schedule
wake up. go to school. go to lab. eat. go to work. miss SteveO. miss Jo*. go home. cook. eat. wash dishes. study. have sex. sleep.
i believe Jo is my best friend but when u think about it it doesnt fit to definition cuz i dont know what my girl is up to, what shes doing, what shes thinking, where she is going, how she is feeling...boo...i get the most info of her journal. why must people have busy lives? but we will get thru this and have a day together and just talk for hrs and hrs!
do y'all remember once i talked about, i met him a year ago and ran into him and he even remembered my name or even noticed i cut my hair? well, i ran into him today again. and again he asked me out, and again i said no. he asked me why i keep saying no, i said cuz im taken, i told you that day one. he said well, day one was a year ago, he thought maybe he would get a chance by now, that he's trying to get to know me for a long ass time and now that im still taken, its pissing him off. he said he understands that speacial connection i got to have with my guy, that its my fate,and he said my guy is some lucky bastard. i suggested we could be friends, and he said, no, he aint gonna trip "cuz it aint no good being around what he cant have" he said hes gonna think about me all day today, and i said youll be ok, ur time will come. he just gave me a look, said goodbye and took off.
this reminds me this conversation i had with my sister. she asked me, once i have this real job of my life and everything, she said all these cute guys will be around me, arent i going to feel like im stuck with Steve? i said "WTF u talking about? do u feel lke ur stuck with ur guy?" i tried to explain her, if ur feeling regret in ur relationship then just dont have one. noone is telling u to be stuck with someone, that shouldnt be how ur feeling, and if thats how shes feelin she should unfortunately let Orlando go. and that i have never ever felt that way cuz cute guys are around me now too. all i feel is a little sadness for the guys SEEM upset but i know they be fucking around with someone else tomorrow, what i feel for Steve and what i receive from him, basically what we have....cannot be explained, it can only be experienced..by us <3
i am so happy, and i truly cant wait till friday. and whats great is hes not going to have school on fridays this semester so now finally we get to have a day together. this past semester that didnt happen, i only got to see him couple hrs at nite and fall asleep together. im really excited.
stats I, eng 102, pyschosexual development, natural environment(bio requirement=/ ), and social work 200.
also this semester, first time since i started college, ill be taking 5 classes. im so excited!
i believe Jo is my best friend but when u think about it it doesnt fit to definition cuz i dont know what my girl is up to, what shes doing, what shes thinking, where she is going, how she is feeling...boo...i get the most info of her journal. why must people have busy lives? but we will get thru this and have a day together and just talk for hrs and hrs!
do y'all remember once i talked about, i met him a year ago and ran into him and he even remembered my name or even noticed i cut my hair? well, i ran into him today again. and again he asked me out, and again i said no. he asked me why i keep saying no, i said cuz im taken, i told you that day one. he said well, day one was a year ago, he thought maybe he would get a chance by now, that he's trying to get to know me for a long ass time and now that im still taken, its pissing him off. he said he understands that speacial connection i got to have with my guy, that its my fate,and he said my guy is some lucky bastard. i suggested we could be friends, and he said, no, he aint gonna trip "cuz it aint no good being around what he cant have" he said hes gonna think about me all day today, and i said youll be ok, ur time will come. he just gave me a look, said goodbye and took off.
this reminds me this conversation i had with my sister. she asked me, once i have this real job of my life and everything, she said all these cute guys will be around me, arent i going to feel like im stuck with Steve? i said "WTF u talking about? do u feel lke ur stuck with ur guy?" i tried to explain her, if ur feeling regret in ur relationship then just dont have one. noone is telling u to be stuck with someone, that shouldnt be how ur feeling, and if thats how shes feelin she should unfortunately let Orlando go. and that i have never ever felt that way cuz cute guys are around me now too. all i feel is a little sadness for the guys SEEM upset but i know they be fucking around with someone else tomorrow, what i feel for Steve and what i receive from him, basically what we have....cannot be explained, it can only be experienced..by us <3
i am so happy, and i truly cant wait till friday. and whats great is hes not going to have school on fridays this semester so now finally we get to have a day together. this past semester that didnt happen, i only got to see him couple hrs at nite and fall asleep together. im really excited.
stats I, eng 102, pyschosexual development, natural environment(bio requirement=/ ), and social work 200.
also this semester, first time since i started college, ill be taking 5 classes. im so excited!