perspective has been achieved
so, it seems that my 'school mom' is getting divorced. news, which initially upset me, then gave me some degree of clarity. i realized that through the 'friendship' with him, i'd been hoping for a resolution and i'd hadn't been honest with myself. i wanted for his mom to one day call me and tell me that she knew about us and that she was okie with it, but THAT will never happen. in denying that inevitability, i was not allowing myself to become a person i could be proud of let alone want to be. SO, i've decided that he and i cannot be friends, at the present moment. it's not good for me right now, and i don't want to wake up angry at myself for sacrificing my feelings for his ... AGAIN.
my boobs tingle. i think this is going to work out for the best.
my boobs tingle. i think this is going to work out for the best.