the reasons...
Well since everyone must know what happened with me and Adam, I'll tell you. Yes, we did break up, but we are still friends. Why did we break up? I'll tell you why:
1. He now has a second job, if you will as assistant band director. It was bad anough I never got to see him when he had one job, but now he has 2, which means I wouldn't see him till November, and it's just not fair to me. Don't get me wrong, I support him and I know he's going to do well. The kids are lucky to have him.
2. I was offered the same position last summer, but for some reason I got screwed out of it and this is how he supports me, by taking it himself. It may sound selfish, but what if you were in my shoes and instead of them supporting you and being there when you didn't get a job, they went and took it. Would you like it? I doubt it. Still though, I wish him the best of luck.
3. He showed more affection towards his ex. He wouldn't even come near me, but he ran into her and gives her a hug right in front of me. Hello!?!?! Isn't the girlfriend supposed to get the hug? Now, I know it's not her fault. She's a hugger. Besides, her and I are friends, but he should have gotten the clue when I was pissed off the rest of the night.
4. We could never just have fun. We'd play a video game and he'd just tell me everything I was doing wrong. Agh! I just wanted to play the damn game. In addition to that, I could never be included in any stupid game. Take yesterday for example, some friends of our were playing poker and I wanted to play his hand. He was holding 2 aces and because of that he would not let me play, as if he was playing for real money. It was right then I realized he'll never change. I could bet you any money that if we were still together he wouldn't let me play then either. Like every other guy, he only thinks about himself.
5. Romance was just non-existant. It killed me to see all these other couples still being romantic after being together for a long time.There was a time when we'd make others puke and it was nice, but once February hit, the romance just died. We never did go out for Valentine's Day and that one still hurts. Furthermore, he forgot our anniversary for 2 months in a row. No, I was never asking for gifts, just for him to remember and say happy anniversary, but I suppose even that was too much trouble, with his busy schedule and all.
Numbers 1, 3 and 5 are the real reasons, sure numbers 2 and 4 hurt like hell, but I guess I could have looked over them. I mean, I can't expect him to be perfect. I just wish that I had the courage to tell him all of this sooner. Maybe we would have still been together, but everything happens for a reason. There's a song by The Wreckers that is perfect for my situation. It goes:
And it's alright
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go
I'm just going to have to take things as they come day by day. I'll get through it. I'm strong ya know and I don't miss him sometimes.