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I am currently at work, suffering from boredom and quite a bit of pain. Heh... The pain is due to the fact that I have not had a break today, or a lunch, nor do I even expect one. My feet hurt, my back hurt, and I feel so sleepy. I must be getting old. How amazingly sad. I am merely 25. You know, it's strange. I really expected more from myself when I was younger. I thought life would be easier. I figured that, by now, I would be married with at least one child, maybe two by now. I have never really cared about my job. I guess I am a bit old fashioned. If it were possible, I would be satisfied being a stay at home parent. I guess many people would probably love that idea, even though for most it is not practical. I wish it were. I wish I could do that. I want to learn how to cook, and eventually home school the children I will have. But these are all fine dreams (albeit impractical), but without a husband, completely impossible. I really am not interested in searching for someone. Does that mean I just don't want it enough, or am I lazy? I just want it to happen so natural, like you see in the movies. I truly was poisoned by romantic music and fairy tales in movies and cartoons, and books. I think everything will just come effortlessly. Maybe I really need to change my perspective. Doing that, however, is much harder than it seems. :( I guess I will just have to keep working on that. For now, I will never take anything for granted, and give everything I have and more.