"Purple is the shop color!" *rolls eyes*

[princessmts1]

Well today was my first day at Max Stacy and it went really well. That place is falling apart though. I think sometime after valentine's day we are going to do a complete remodel. Including lots of paint, and cleaning. fun fun lol. It really needs done though. Anyways my day was spent making orders and trying to learn the computer system there

Comments

[hulaholly]

Christie,

If you are referring to the conversation Megan and I had the other night, where she asked me in complete honesty if I wanted her back in her group, I'm sorry if that offended you. It was a conversation between Megan and me, and I was being honest. There is no social coordinator for our group. We are all our own people and do what we want/hang out with who we want/whatever. No one is standing around letting people into the group. That's ridiculous.

Anyway, I don't know why comments on livejournal have to be so ambigious as to who you are talking about. If you are upset or something about a conversation I had with Megan, then talk to me about it.

I'm not a huge fan of everyone being best friends again because I know it is unreasonable. But if you think it can work, and it does, then you've definitely proved me wrong.

I don't want all kinds of drama going on. I feel like I'm always put in the middle of things. Like Megan asked me for the honest truth how I felt about her being back in the group, and now someone who wasn't even in the conversation is accusing me of being "the freaking social coordinator for your "group"".

Anyway, if you want to talk or you want me to listen, tell me. I don't want people pissed off for stupid reasons. We are all our own people. If people want to hang out, they can. I don't care. Why would I?

And if this is not about me, then I feel dumb. But I'm pretty sure it is. Sorry for upsetting you/making you mad/whatever I did unintentionally.

Holly

[princessmts1]

Holly,

This is why I didn't talk to you about it, because I figured you would get mad at Megan for telling me about it and I didn't want that to happen. I figured I would put an ambiguous comment on LJ so I could get my frustration out and that would be the end of it. But since you commented, let me tell you what I think.

If you are saying that we are all our own people and we can hang out whenever we want, then you are totally contradicting yourself. Why would you tell Megan that you wouldn't care if she hung out with you guys, but not "the rest of us"? It sure does sound like you care about who hangs out.

As far as being best friends again, I know we aren't all going to be BEST friends, but being friends again isn't unreasonable at all. The only reason it is unreasonable to you is because you are making it that way.

And this is not a "stupid" reason to be pissed off. It's bullshit that we were all friends for so long and now we can't even hang out without akwardness. And I will be the first to admit that this akwardness is caused by both sides, but I thought we could all be better people and put our arguments behind us.

The comment you made really upset me because I thought we were making progress with the whole situation, but obviously we aren't. I just don't know if it's even worth it anymore.

Christie

Re: right, like i could stay out of the drama.

[charmedstar03]

yea, Im pretty sure New Years was it, we should undo that.. and do something soon. Like.. Kyaking!

Re: right, like i could stay out of the drama.

[hulaholly]

what i said was honest. if you don't want honesty, don't ask for it megan. i dont' care who hangs out with who, i just said the other night that i think it's unrealisitic for everyone to think that everyone is going to be best firends again. and don't even think i'm not trying. when steph came to applebees tuesday, we talked. at the party, me and you talked. i'm not the social coordinator of anything, so i'd appreciate not being put in the middle of it. if you all want to hang out, lets hang out. anyone can hang out with whoever they want, and i really don't care. it doesn't bother me one bit. like i dicussed with christie, i'm being realisitc.

and you wonder why i get upset? it's stuff like me having a conversation with you and then you making it into something its not and making everyone all of a sudden upset.mad at me for me BEING HOENST WITH YOU. i honestly don't have any problem with everyone being friends again, but i'm being realistic by saying that its not perfectly reasonable.

i don't know why i got shoved in the middle of this. i'm done dealing with it. i'm going to continue being nice and continue trying to make progreses, but again, i dont think it is realistic for everyone to be best friends again. that's just me. like i told christie, if it happens, super. if not, ok. i feel like you have totally misconstrued everything i said to you, in confidence, the other night.

If you want to talk, we can do it off of livejournal. I'm sick of being in the middle of this. I dont own a group. Everyone can hang out with whoever they want. There is no closed circle. You hang out with Ashley. Stephanie came to Applebees. I mean there have been changes.

At andys birthday, i wasn't the only one who didnt jump up and down and beg you to sit by me. It was awkward for everyone. You didnt say a word to me either, so thats a two way street.

Sorry if this is scattered, but it's late, i'm tired and upset, and having a hard time realizing why I'm in the middle of soemthing. I want everyone to be friends again. I hate no one, but again, unreasonable for it to happen with everyone happy.

IN closure, I have no group. I own no one. Everyone can hang out with who they want, and I totally support it all. So don't try to make it seem like I'm against you and everyone else because I'm not. I'm being realistic, not pessimistic, and by God I'm trying a hell of a lot harder than some people.

Re: right, like i could stay out of the drama.

[hulaholly]

i'm done arguring. drill it into the ground, i don't care. i've said it 25 times. no one controls anyone. anyone can hang out with whomever the hell they want and i don't care.

ok? good.

i'm done.