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So, I am currently sitting in my apartment sorta, kinda watching real world. My tum tum hurts so I haven't really done anything today. I worked Monday, yesterday, and today all at Parkview and Kickapoo (I HATE high schools and that's what thoes are). It's sucked, but I gotta work. Tomorrow I am working a half day at Kickapoo again and then on Friday I am going to work a half day at Cherokee MS whee... middle school... I love middle school and is it sad I am looking forward to that. Possibly. Oh well. Next week I am going to be rich with 4 full days under my belt. It's gonna be sweet.
I am thinking about going home again while Ben is out of town because he's gonna be gone for a week and a half and I don't know what I am going to do with myself. I really should save my money and not buy Wii Fit if I go home. I don't know... I want to go home but at the same time I don't. The last time I went home, it was terrible. I cried almost every night but I'm going to do the same thing here, just lonlier. I am going to be alone. I won't know what to do with myself for a whole 10 days without anyone. At least when I am home, there is always something going on. It does really frustrate me that Ben and I have been together for a little less than 6 years and I'm still not allowed to go on his family vacation. It really pisses me off. Whatever. I give up. I can't get upset anymore about it because I know I am never going to be accepted into that family. Like, my family is going on a vacation this summer... my entire extended family and Ben's invited... and this is the first time we've ever done this. It's dumb.
Ben is with Jared right now doing band stuff. I don't know really what they were doing. I think Ben is learning bass lines or something. I'm not quite sure. I was over there and baked cookies but then I got bored... haha. I came home and am now watching real world because I'm awesome.
Anyways, I think I am going to go becasue it's commericals and I can now go watch real world on my bigger tv. hehe. bye
I am thinking about going home again while Ben is out of town because he's gonna be gone for a week and a half and I don't know what I am going to do with myself. I really should save my money and not buy Wii Fit if I go home. I don't know... I want to go home but at the same time I don't. The last time I went home, it was terrible. I cried almost every night but I'm going to do the same thing here, just lonlier. I am going to be alone. I won't know what to do with myself for a whole 10 days without anyone. At least when I am home, there is always something going on. It does really frustrate me that Ben and I have been together for a little less than 6 years and I'm still not allowed to go on his family vacation. It really pisses me off. Whatever. I give up. I can't get upset anymore about it because I know I am never going to be accepted into that family. Like, my family is going on a vacation this summer... my entire extended family and Ben's invited... and this is the first time we've ever done this. It's dumb.
Ben is with Jared right now doing band stuff. I don't know really what they were doing. I think Ben is learning bass lines or something. I'm not quite sure. I was over there and baked cookies but then I got bored... haha. I came home and am now watching real world because I'm awesome.
Anyways, I think I am going to go becasue it's commericals and I can now go watch real world on my bigger tv. hehe. bye