I've got mixed emotions!
Ok... My cuz said that she gave Justin my # and that he said he'd call me when he felt better (he's not feeling well)... I'd like to talk to him right now... I wish I could in so many ways... My cuz wants me to go to her house next weekend for valetines day weekend and have me, Justin, her, and someone else go out for valentines... I'm thinkin' that his could be cool... I mean I could get to know Justin better, but what about Niki's feelings... I don't want to hurt her at all... I always used to be told that she was childish and would never grow up but this incident just proves that she can be and adult about tough stuff... I'm so proud of her...
Anyways... I haven't talked to Christian at all... This shit is getting old really fast... I can't do it anymore... I'm just gonna break it off and get it over w/... I refuse to be hurt by him anymore... I need someone new to hurt me... At least this time I won't fall too soon into something that might not work... I'm gonna go... I need to think about things... Love ya... <3!!!