I wish...
so I figured out what I'm doin for christmas gifts this year for my aunts and uncles and maybe teachers..who knows ...but I'm going to etch wine glasses like I did the candle things for my Alex's mom awhile back....So i tired to find my kit..and of course its gone...in this hell hole...I hate my house...cause the upstairs still isnt done after almost 10 years...but yeah...I'm gunna buy new stuff tomorrow...
so today my mom woke me up at 1PM ..cause...I didnt get myself up cause I didn't reset my clock in my room from cleaning yesterday...and i figured someone would wake me up.....so..yeah...then i sat here for awhile....then my mom and dad went to uh...Soyana (thats not how you spell her name, i don't think) Donegan's wedding...and they let eric go to see sam.....so I went for awalk around town to clear my head of all the shit that has been happening lately...
and I realized...how badly I want things to go back to when I was in 8th grade....even though...my best friend moved to greece....I miss Alex so much....but..I met cassi...and became more good of friends with David...it was like...the greatest year for me...I did good in all my classes...loved all my teacher...except the bird...but.....the beginning of the year was great.....but then the night of the 8th dinner dance....everything seemed to change.....an hour before the dance i got a phone call from my cousin telling me that Matthew hung himself... I don't know why..but I still went to the dance...it was probably because I was in shock...and still had in mind that matthew helped me pick out my dress and called me beautiful in it...and gave me my cross to wear with it.....then I had to fucking deal with david dumping Jessie over the phone....then...him crying on my shoulder...then him asking out Danille......just after that night everything started falling apart.....David met Sean....Sean got david into drugs...
that summer i saw cassi and david alot...but...then school started again.....high school....cassi was forced to move....and david got more into drugs......I was alone for the rest of the year.....expect gym class...where i met Jessie, Maria, Beth..and Sarah and Heather..but I ready knew them....and I became closer friends with them.....so that year did totally suck much....
things seemed to get better after that...but...everything is in the shit hole now....
and I just want to go back into hiding...for along time...
til I'm out of high school...
so today my mom woke me up at 1PM ..cause...I didnt get myself up cause I didn't reset my clock in my room from cleaning yesterday...and i figured someone would wake me up.....so..yeah...then i sat here for awhile....then my mom and dad went to uh...Soyana (thats not how you spell her name, i don't think) Donegan's wedding...and they let eric go to see sam.....so I went for awalk around town to clear my head of all the shit that has been happening lately...
and I realized...how badly I want things to go back to when I was in 8th grade....even though...my best friend moved to greece....I miss Alex so much....but..I met cassi...and became more good of friends with David...it was like...the greatest year for me...I did good in all my classes...loved all my teacher...except the bird...but.....the beginning of the year was great.....but then the night of the 8th dinner dance....everything seemed to change.....an hour before the dance i got a phone call from my cousin telling me that Matthew hung himself... I don't know why..but I still went to the dance...it was probably because I was in shock...and still had in mind that matthew helped me pick out my dress and called me beautiful in it...and gave me my cross to wear with it.....then I had to fucking deal with david dumping Jessie over the phone....then...him crying on my shoulder...then him asking out Danille......just after that night everything started falling apart.....David met Sean....Sean got david into drugs...
that summer i saw cassi and david alot...but...then school started again.....high school....cassi was forced to move....and david got more into drugs......I was alone for the rest of the year.....expect gym class...where i met Jessie, Maria, Beth..and Sarah and Heather..but I ready knew them....and I became closer friends with them.....so that year did totally suck much....
things seemed to get better after that...but...everything is in the shit hole now....
and I just want to go back into hiding...for along time...
til I'm out of high school...