missing you, missing me
So on my way home from the quad office, which is right across the street from my building, i saw the huge dumpster that is put at every quad around this time, because everyones moving out. I saw it and forgot why it was there, then it sunk in ... and i almost started to cry. as much as i want summer, i dont know if im ready for it. I feel like all of a sudden i lost touch with a lot of people that are close to me, even my roommate. I am pretty depressed about all the changes that are going to happen as soon as we hand in our keys for our A-5,202 apartment. Liz is moving out on Thursday, Matt and Jamie will be moving into their new apartment in June, Paula will be living somewhere else, the Chris' wont be across the hall anymore ... when we come back we will all be 21 and seniors ... and then a lot of tears will flow with graduation as well, the one this spring as the one coming up in December and next may, im not ready to watch people walk on stage again.
alot has changed in the past 2 weeks, from elections in APO- to kinda starting a new relationship -to needing to talk to a couple different people but us all being too busy ... right now, i am confused and sad and feel like dying. i came home today and moped around and watched a lifetime movie followed by another one and then i fell asleep for like over 3hours, and i woke up feeling like crap and i still have so much to do before Initiations tomorrow and i am getting stressed out, but at least after over 8 hours of work the Psi Pledge Class Scrapbook is complete, thanks to some wings, white merlot and Christina ;)
on another wierd note, i miss my mom. i had a bad dream last night and it had to do with her and i just really miss her today :(
i feel out of touch with the world. lately i have been in my own little universe, trying to deal with all the things floating around in my head, and i want them to stop floating on; i want them to leave. i want the emo playlist to be playing all the time, all the songs repeat in my head and i'm used to it.
i want things to go back to how they were, me just caring about my family, my friends and myself. that's all i will ever need, and all i ever want. no one ever said life was easy, and i dont remember anyone ever saying that it was going to make you cry all the time either.
i'm out.
alot has changed in the past 2 weeks, from elections in APO- to kinda starting a new relationship -to needing to talk to a couple different people but us all being too busy ... right now, i am confused and sad and feel like dying. i came home today and moped around and watched a lifetime movie followed by another one and then i fell asleep for like over 3hours, and i woke up feeling like crap and i still have so much to do before Initiations tomorrow and i am getting stressed out, but at least after over 8 hours of work the Psi Pledge Class Scrapbook is complete, thanks to some wings, white merlot and Christina ;)
on another wierd note, i miss my mom. i had a bad dream last night and it had to do with her and i just really miss her today :(
i feel out of touch with the world. lately i have been in my own little universe, trying to deal with all the things floating around in my head, and i want them to stop floating on; i want them to leave. i want the emo playlist to be playing all the time, all the songs repeat in my head and i'm used to it.
i want things to go back to how they were, me just caring about my family, my friends and myself. that's all i will ever need, and all i ever want. no one ever said life was easy, and i dont remember anyone ever saying that it was going to make you cry all the time either.
i'm out.