FINALLY. an UPDATE.
Today begins the "lonely wk". Sounds a lil over dramatic but thats how I feel. My best friend & the only one who will get how i feel right now without thinking im crazy...is gone. Shes outta state till the 23rd :(
I saw HP & the OOTP & it was AMAZING. Me & bubba saw it weds night wen it came out. We went to Hanover theatre, which was REALLY nice like randolph. The movie was AMAZING. Even better than the 4th....but i could b a lil partial cuz the 5th is my favorite book. I was happy that thery fit the amount of crap into the 5th movie that they did. Although, the thing is, as anticipated the 5th movie devastated me like the 5th book did. I cried alot, even before sirius "died". Bellatrix i wanted to MURDER. AH. After we left te theatre I even cried...just off & on. The feelings i felt after i read the book came back clear as day.
Its strange but the 5th book affects me on such a personal level. I end up FEELING the vibe of the book...I feel like im in harrys lonely sad shoes....& I feel like a part of me died w/Sirius. a feeling of hopelessness cames along w/the Order of the Phoenix. It sounds silly to say tho, and its something only big HP fans i think will understand. And now that Laurens left for the outer banks, I have all the more reason to feel alone & hopeless.
My best friends not gunna be here 4 the release of the 7th book on the 21st...leaving me without a buddy 2 go with. I hafta scramble 4 someone else...which obviously wont be the same since hp is one of our "things". I dunno...it sounds bad but I just feel like isolating myself. Call it depressed or hermity...but I just need alone time. All summer ive been nonstop with EVERYONE, ALL THE TIME. Now I just wanna chill....chill & read. I dont even really care if i see anyone 4 the next week. I need to just relax & slow down. If i dont im gunna be really unhappy. Thats the way I feel. I think Petes coming over tonight, wich SHOULD be good but im in such a hobo mood that i feel ill drag him down w/me. I'm also goin 2 chatham w/chris jay & jess sunday...which should lift my spirits. But for now I feel like Harry...on my own with no one to understand. Im gunna go clean up, work out then go out in the sun :)
I saw HP & the OOTP & it was AMAZING. Me & bubba saw it weds night wen it came out. We went to Hanover theatre, which was REALLY nice like randolph. The movie was AMAZING. Even better than the 4th....but i could b a lil partial cuz the 5th is my favorite book. I was happy that thery fit the amount of crap into the 5th movie that they did. Although, the thing is, as anticipated the 5th movie devastated me like the 5th book did. I cried alot, even before sirius "died". Bellatrix i wanted to MURDER. AH. After we left te theatre I even cried...just off & on. The feelings i felt after i read the book came back clear as day.
Its strange but the 5th book affects me on such a personal level. I end up FEELING the vibe of the book...I feel like im in harrys lonely sad shoes....& I feel like a part of me died w/Sirius. a feeling of hopelessness cames along w/the Order of the Phoenix. It sounds silly to say tho, and its something only big HP fans i think will understand. And now that Laurens left for the outer banks, I have all the more reason to feel alone & hopeless.
My best friends not gunna be here 4 the release of the 7th book on the 21st...leaving me without a buddy 2 go with. I hafta scramble 4 someone else...which obviously wont be the same since hp is one of our "things". I dunno...it sounds bad but I just feel like isolating myself. Call it depressed or hermity...but I just need alone time. All summer ive been nonstop with EVERYONE, ALL THE TIME. Now I just wanna chill....chill & read. I dont even really care if i see anyone 4 the next week. I need to just relax & slow down. If i dont im gunna be really unhappy. Thats the way I feel. I think Petes coming over tonight, wich SHOULD be good but im in such a hobo mood that i feel ill drag him down w/me. I'm also goin 2 chatham w/chris jay & jess sunday...which should lift my spirits. But for now I feel like Harry...on my own with no one to understand. Im gunna go clean up, work out then go out in the sun :)