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going back and reading the last entry i realized that i really actually am looking forward to the trip.
and how strange it is to see that sentence and to have it be true
and how long it has been since that sentence was true about any trip
i mean, i guess i always am glad i went on trips, and there are things i'm definitely glad i got to do and see
but traveling is so stressful in general
i get so anxious and worked up ahead of time about trips
that i can't look forward to them usually
i just get worried and all tied up with mental lists of things that need to be done and things that i have to remember and the anxiety of going to an unfamiliar place that i am not usually very nice to be around the day before we leave.
and traveling itself is so stressful because of the people i go with freaking out and being all urgent.
so i get all freaked out BEFORE the trip starts... but once we're on our way i actually calm down because now it's "too late?" idfk what my brain thinks.
airports are made for complete idiots who dont even speak english to navigate easily. signage is clear. people are helpful. calm the fuck down and don't rush all over the place all frantic and everything will be fine and we don't have to stress out.
and how strange it is to see that sentence and to have it be true
and how long it has been since that sentence was true about any trip
i mean, i guess i always am glad i went on trips, and there are things i'm definitely glad i got to do and see
but traveling is so stressful in general
i get so anxious and worked up ahead of time about trips
that i can't look forward to them usually
i just get worried and all tied up with mental lists of things that need to be done and things that i have to remember and the anxiety of going to an unfamiliar place that i am not usually very nice to be around the day before we leave.
and traveling itself is so stressful because of the people i go with freaking out and being all urgent.
so i get all freaked out BEFORE the trip starts... but once we're on our way i actually calm down because now it's "too late?" idfk what my brain thinks.
airports are made for complete idiots who dont even speak english to navigate easily. signage is clear. people are helpful. calm the fuck down and don't rush all over the place all frantic and everything will be fine and we don't have to stress out.