Life's a roller coaster of emotions...
Hey, well I swear I only use this thing to bitch my feelings out on. But I guess that's what I made it for (that and at the time I couldn't get myspace to work). Anyway, so I've been taking that YAZ birth control pill to aid with my crazy mood swings before my period. Well it's throwing my hormones for a loop and making it worse! Sometimes I think it's too much trouble to even bother with it. It makes me nauseous most of the time anyway. I've been on my "period" since June 22!!! So I went to the whole pms symptoms (irritability, anger, physical sxs, mood swings, etc) 2 freakin times!!!
Last night I was really emotional for no reason really and started bawling. I was just sitting on the floor in my room crying. Well, that's really a lie because there was one reason. I was feeling unappreciated and angry because I was holding my feelings in about being frustrated and mad and lonely and stuff.
Also been getting a lot of migraines lately and I havent gotten them since I was finishing my internship in the winter of 05. A couple of weeks ago I had one so bad I couldnt even keep my eyes open. Just laid on the couch and cried and fell asleep.
One thing I have been really pissed about is work. I had a lot of plans this month and now I'm so pissed because I've been losing client hours (won't get paid if I can't see them) and my boss keeps taking 85 million vacations and with the new wrap process it takes two weeks to get the kids reauthorized for services. I'm so sick of not knowing what my paychecks are going to be. I've been stressed out bec I havent been paying my car pymt on time because I have too much output and not enough input. I hate my job!! I'm ready for a change. I dont want to do therapy anymore. I want to go back to school but I'm not ready for another 5 yrs in school and $100,000+ in student loans!
I dont like feeling empty and that's what Ive been feeling. I'm sick of working just to pay bills. Everytime I want to do something with my hard earned money I cant and if I do I immediately kick myself in the ass because I regret it!!
Last night I was really emotional for no reason really and started bawling. I was just sitting on the floor in my room crying. Well, that's really a lie because there was one reason. I was feeling unappreciated and angry because I was holding my feelings in about being frustrated and mad and lonely and stuff.
Also been getting a lot of migraines lately and I havent gotten them since I was finishing my internship in the winter of 05. A couple of weeks ago I had one so bad I couldnt even keep my eyes open. Just laid on the couch and cried and fell asleep.
One thing I have been really pissed about is work. I had a lot of plans this month and now I'm so pissed because I've been losing client hours (won't get paid if I can't see them) and my boss keeps taking 85 million vacations and with the new wrap process it takes two weeks to get the kids reauthorized for services. I'm so sick of not knowing what my paychecks are going to be. I've been stressed out bec I havent been paying my car pymt on time because I have too much output and not enough input. I hate my job!! I'm ready for a change. I dont want to do therapy anymore. I want to go back to school but I'm not ready for another 5 yrs in school and $100,000+ in student loans!
I dont like feeling empty and that's what Ive been feeling. I'm sick of working just to pay bills. Everytime I want to do something with my hard earned money I cant and if I do I immediately kick myself in the ass because I regret it!!