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Well, my mother just full out admitted she didn't think I'd ever be able to move to California for college. Great vote of confidence right there. I want to do it so bad. I want to do it just to prove to myself I CAN do it. I think I'm going to. It's still 2 years away, but still. She's like "how are you going to leave the state when you hardly leave the house?"-oh you'll see. It's so different. I'll be on my own. I have no doubt it will be scary, but it's different somehow. I can't explain how, but I know. I am going to try it. If I don't like it, fine, I'll stick it out for the year and then come home and go somewhere else. But I know if I don't try it I'll regret it and always be wondering "What if?". Then again, I could just settle for NY, which also has a lot of entertainment business but is closer to home. I'd be able to drive home on any weekends I want to. A four hour drive isn't that bad. But I don't want to settle for something. I want to go to California, and that's where I should go. Oh god. How will I ever be able to do it? I need to stop thinking like that. I will be able to do it. I hope...Oh well, I think way too far ahead. I better just get through my junior year first.