drugs and drama
today i went to flagstaff with some friends. our whole day was screwed up and nothing went right. it was supposed to be just my friend tasha and i while her boyfriend and his friend went snowboarding, but the lift was down...too windy. then i find out that chris is supposed to be meeting up with them shortly and spending the day there. but nobody told me that before. so when he got there he was drunk and being a total jerk. so me and tasha went to the mall to go shopping(its the cure for all sickness!). then we met up with the guys for lunch. tasha was mad at her bf and cried all through lunch, chris kept saying fucked up shit and i just sat there. i didnt know what to do! so anyways....tasha and steven made up and then decided to go to sunrise for the weekend, tasha and i went home. and tasha told me on the ride home that chris had been tweeking the whole time we were together,and he lied, again. i fel really stupid that i believed him. in a way i really feel that ive wasted 2 years. there are so many things i could have done in that time. i shoulda juts waited around for kyle...im sooooo kidding! but anyways.... i feel really stupid and just hurt. i shoulda known, but in a way i wanted to trust him that he was clean. who knows what else hes done...people tel me thats he cheated on me too but i dont know. and ive tried to ask him and he wont fess up. i wish people would just tell the truth! cuz now im more upset then if he would have been like, "jesica, im a fucking drug addict, i never quit, im a liar and im sorry im such a loser and cant stop." but he didnt he just kept lying. and now i feel lied to and dumb on top of it because i didnt see it. i just want someone normal in my life... i dont get it. im a good kid, i dont do drugs, i dont steal, i tell the truth and all i have is fucked up friend wiht issuses and drug addictions. i hate this town. i cant wait to move to california and live in a house on the beach and skate up the strand every morning. only another year and 4 months! alright well i gotta get some sleep. i gotta work in the morning.