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Soooo. its 1.21 am and despite the rest of my fam being in bed, I find my self sitting here on the net. Not that I mind. Ive just had a milo with some timtams and am not feeling tired in the slightest. Isnt that lovely?!
These last few days have been a crazy rollercoaster, with basicly me and my own thoughs as the only passengers. However, after all these different thoughts have been playing out in my head, Ive come to some kind of ending.
Ive been back here in Horsham land for a good 6months now and as much as I know SL will never leave me, Ive realised that I cant keep living the way I have. Waking up each day and taking a few minutes to remember that Im not in my big blue bed at the Heins... and wondering why. Ive reached this point where Ive realised that the last image of SLians standing at GR airports, tears streaming down eyes and the people and relationships that were there then,... wont be there when I return. That as much as (oh gosh this sounds so selfish) I knew deep down that life would go on over there, I wish it didnt. And the events of these last few days have made me face the fact that yes, things have changed and no I dont have any control over them.
But you know what.... that ok....
I have peace.
These last few days have been a crazy rollercoaster, with basicly me and my own thoughs as the only passengers. However, after all these different thoughts have been playing out in my head, Ive come to some kind of ending.
Ive been back here in Horsham land for a good 6months now and as much as I know SL will never leave me, Ive realised that I cant keep living the way I have. Waking up each day and taking a few minutes to remember that Im not in my big blue bed at the Heins... and wondering why. Ive reached this point where Ive realised that the last image of SLians standing at GR airports, tears streaming down eyes and the people and relationships that were there then,... wont be there when I return. That as much as (oh gosh this sounds so selfish) I knew deep down that life would go on over there, I wish it didnt. And the events of these last few days have made me face the fact that yes, things have changed and no I dont have any control over them.
But you know what.... that ok....
I have peace.