blood. guts. bruises. cuts.
i have been listening to all my old favourite songs lately, like songs from when i was 15 or whatever and i realized that i think they will always still be my favourites. i recommend it. they were your favourites for a reason.
i haven't updated this in a long, long time, which i think is a shame, because a lot is happening in my life. or at least i'm having a lot of new experiences that, once they pass me by, i can't really remember what i was like before they happened. i can't really explain it. i think medicine kind of... changes you as a person, as lame as that sounds, and sometimes i kind of wish i could go back to remembering what it was like to NOT know or have seen some of the things i have? and i'm only at the beginning?! how do you get through a life of this? also, i sometimes feel like i can't remember any of my INTERESTS... what did i use to talk/think about? i honestly have trouble remembering and it makes me feel incredibly boring.
we're almost done the first quarter of clerkship which is crazy to think about. it was so terrifying coming into this year because the expectations are so different but it has turned out all right, so far. the loss of freedom is a big change but i guess that does happen to almost everyone, eventually... i started with 6 weeks on CTU, which is hospital internal medicine, and then 2 weeks at the public health unit, and 2 weeks on emergency medicine. i'm not sure what i want to be yet (surprise surprise!). we have our big huge internal medicine exam tomorrow so if i don't get down to studying instead of updating this the only thing i may be is a huge failure. ughh.
here's a compromise between old favourites and new; a new song by my favourite calgary band from calgary, the dudes. i loved them in high school and i still do.
i haven't updated this in a long, long time, which i think is a shame, because a lot is happening in my life. or at least i'm having a lot of new experiences that, once they pass me by, i can't really remember what i was like before they happened. i can't really explain it. i think medicine kind of... changes you as a person, as lame as that sounds, and sometimes i kind of wish i could go back to remembering what it was like to NOT know or have seen some of the things i have? and i'm only at the beginning?! how do you get through a life of this? also, i sometimes feel like i can't remember any of my INTERESTS... what did i use to talk/think about? i honestly have trouble remembering and it makes me feel incredibly boring.
we're almost done the first quarter of clerkship which is crazy to think about. it was so terrifying coming into this year because the expectations are so different but it has turned out all right, so far. the loss of freedom is a big change but i guess that does happen to almost everyone, eventually... i started with 6 weeks on CTU, which is hospital internal medicine, and then 2 weeks at the public health unit, and 2 weeks on emergency medicine. i'm not sure what i want to be yet (surprise surprise!). we have our big huge internal medicine exam tomorrow so if i don't get down to studying instead of updating this the only thing i may be is a huge failure. ughh.
here's a compromise between old favourites and new; a new song by my favourite calgary band from calgary, the dudes. i loved them in high school and i still do.
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