Nuovo Inizio!
Lying in bed last night I realised that there couldn't be a better time to begin my online journalling, which was so kindly set up for me ages ago by Miss Maria!
I am right on the verge of a huuuuge change of life, and right now everything in my future is quite uncertain.... where shall I live, where will I work, will I ever have a functional and easy relationship, is the perfect lipgloss really out there?
The other reason is that in losing my partner I also lose my best friend; my sounding board, my confidante, the person who gets the benefit of my nightly debriefs! I saw a medium at the Enmore Spiritualist Church on Sunday, she held my hands tightly, looked into my eyes and told me that she sees I am very lonely. And I realised I am. Which is why I am moving back to Brisbane (counting the sleeps!) and why more than ever I should be telling my thoughts to a journal in the interim.
The medium also told me that my grandfather was with her, and that she didn't normally do this, but did she have permission to give me a kiss and a cuddle, because grandpa was being quite insistent! It was so beautiful, and strange, because she was patting my back exactly the way grandpa used to do... she also told me my current life purpose is to open up spiritually, which strangely enough is a realisation I have come to over the past few weeks...
I'm sitting at work looking out the front door, the rain is pelting down, and soggy people are huddled under our awning. Lucky my boss isn't here or he would ask them to move. Yes, he really would. I work for very strange people, who should have retired years ago. They like to bring their big white show poodles into work, who run up and down at the windows barking at passerbys, for about 6 hours a day. Luckily my time here is now limited. I should also point out that internet usage is strictly forbidden, as the Office Rules state "Please reframe (sp) from using the internet for personal reasons" :)
I have also been using the internet on work time to look for little houses in Brisbane, silly really as I still have two months to wait, but I am like a woman possessed!
Ah, I think I hear the poodles arriving in all their fluffy, noisy splendour... back to an appearance of "work"!
I am right on the verge of a huuuuge change of life, and right now everything in my future is quite uncertain.... where shall I live, where will I work, will I ever have a functional and easy relationship, is the perfect lipgloss really out there?
The other reason is that in losing my partner I also lose my best friend; my sounding board, my confidante, the person who gets the benefit of my nightly debriefs! I saw a medium at the Enmore Spiritualist Church on Sunday, she held my hands tightly, looked into my eyes and told me that she sees I am very lonely. And I realised I am. Which is why I am moving back to Brisbane (counting the sleeps!) and why more than ever I should be telling my thoughts to a journal in the interim.
The medium also told me that my grandfather was with her, and that she didn't normally do this, but did she have permission to give me a kiss and a cuddle, because grandpa was being quite insistent! It was so beautiful, and strange, because she was patting my back exactly the way grandpa used to do... she also told me my current life purpose is to open up spiritually, which strangely enough is a realisation I have come to over the past few weeks...
I'm sitting at work looking out the front door, the rain is pelting down, and soggy people are huddled under our awning. Lucky my boss isn't here or he would ask them to move. Yes, he really would. I work for very strange people, who should have retired years ago. They like to bring their big white show poodles into work, who run up and down at the windows barking at passerbys, for about 6 hours a day. Luckily my time here is now limited. I should also point out that internet usage is strictly forbidden, as the Office Rules state "Please reframe (sp) from using the internet for personal reasons" :)
I have also been using the internet on work time to look for little houses in Brisbane, silly really as I still have two months to wait, but I am like a woman possessed!
Ah, I think I hear the poodles arriving in all their fluffy, noisy splendour... back to an appearance of "work"!