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I am feeling very frustrated right now. I am annoyed with everything that is going on in my life. Between the billion papers and applications and just blah...I don't know where to go. I can't even begin all this shit, I feel. I am 19 years old. I am deciding my future. Crazy. I don't know now if I wanna study abroad in the summer anymore. As dumb as it sounds, I don't want to miss David's 21st birthday. I want to be there celebrating it with him. He got one internship in the spring, if he takes it-->he might visit me in Europe. But on my birthday he also finds out if he got the internship he wants more--with a company that he would actually take their job offer. This would mean he would not be able to visit me. I know I should not make decision around him...yet he is he a big part of my life. Maybe this is still me following the stereotype that the woman should always be the one to change. Who knows.
On another note, I am taking an exam in April, I believe, to become a foreign relations officer. This would change my life completely. If i get it, well I am sorry to let all of you know..but I might be stationed in Baghdad for my first year. Am I scared? No, I'm not really. My professor told me I am what they are looking for and that they would probably consider me very trainable. I pick up languages well. I am not sure what language they would try to train me with first...but we will see. They also pay for grad school, housing, health care, flights, etc. It's not quite enlisting in the army or anything like that...but yea. I would be probably required to move approximately ever four years though. I talked to Dave about it and well when he starts working, he needs five years and then he can transfer anywhere in the world. I think I might want to do this...even if for a little while. No harm in trying. Professor Merrill also told me to apply to FBI, CIA, and NSA. We also chatted about using the "woman card" for all it's worth. Ugh I hate the future. So frustrating. I also might be deleting lj around March prolly.
Time to do a billion papers and study a million hours.
On another note, I am taking an exam in April, I believe, to become a foreign relations officer. This would change my life completely. If i get it, well I am sorry to let all of you know..but I might be stationed in Baghdad for my first year. Am I scared? No, I'm not really. My professor told me I am what they are looking for and that they would probably consider me very trainable. I pick up languages well. I am not sure what language they would try to train me with first...but we will see. They also pay for grad school, housing, health care, flights, etc. It's not quite enlisting in the army or anything like that...but yea. I would be probably required to move approximately ever four years though. I talked to Dave about it and well when he starts working, he needs five years and then he can transfer anywhere in the world. I think I might want to do this...even if for a little while. No harm in trying. Professor Merrill also told me to apply to FBI, CIA, and NSA. We also chatted about using the "woman card" for all it's worth. Ugh I hate the future. So frustrating. I also might be deleting lj around March prolly.
Time to do a billion papers and study a million hours.