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paul just left my house... it was silly. karen and my mom and i were sitting around waiting for Queer Eye to come on, when i got a call from paul. he wanted to hang out, but i didn't want to drive over there and drink and then not be able to drive home... besides, i had already told karen that i would pose nude for her so she could draw me for her figure drawing class. so after the posing thing, paul ended up coming over to my house, we watched queer eye and family guy and drank a couple drinks and he just left. david called while paul was here, though, and i thought it was the greatest thing ever. he said, "i just wanted to call before i went to sleep" i wish i could hug him any time i wanted to... cuz if i could, i'd be hugging him right now. anyway, i don't have much to say here... paul and karen flirted like teenagers, paul in his typical paul-ish horny kinky way and karen in typical teenager girl way and then paul left and even though i am very tired, i decided to write in my live journal before i went to bed.
i'm not sure about moving out. i mean, it would be great, but it can wait. david wants me to wait for him, which is fine. it won't be too long, i'm sure. it really depends on whether or not i can finish my schooling in town or if i'm gonna have to move to big rapids, and if so, when. it would be nice to have my own place, but i want to be with david, and i want him to be happy. if he wants me to wait for him, then i will. after all, i've lived with my parents this long... what's a few more months going to hurt? i just hope that there will be as many opportunities in a few months as there are now... today i noticed that one of the places i had looked at with longing no longer has a "for rent" sign outside. i hope that putting this off isn't a mistake. i love being close to david, and i know i won't be unhappy staying with my parents. i just want things to be good for us, and i thought that having my own apartment would be. but if it's not good for him, then it's not good for us. and if it's not good for us, then it's not good for me. simple as that. anyway, if i end up having to go to big rapids, then we can get an apartment together out there, because he's going to have to go to school out there too. the only thing that i'm concerned about as far as that goes is that i'm an art student... i mean... i'm applying at kendall... i'm a jewelry major. i do need to get a degree in business, i know, but i can achieve that here if i have to. kendall has an amazing metalsmithing program, and it would be perfect for me. if i AM going to have to go to big rapids, then how am i going to take classes at kendall? man, it's really frustrating trying to go to 3 schools at once.
anyway, the main reason that i wanted to write this tonight was to express how much i adore my boyfriend and how he means the world to me and to say "david, i love you." the future is yet to be revealed... i don't know exactly where i'm heading with that last thing, but either way, my relationship with david is the best thing that i have ever had. no matter what ends up happening with school, i will always love him and everything will work out perfectly in the end.
i'm not sure about moving out. i mean, it would be great, but it can wait. david wants me to wait for him, which is fine. it won't be too long, i'm sure. it really depends on whether or not i can finish my schooling in town or if i'm gonna have to move to big rapids, and if so, when. it would be nice to have my own place, but i want to be with david, and i want him to be happy. if he wants me to wait for him, then i will. after all, i've lived with my parents this long... what's a few more months going to hurt? i just hope that there will be as many opportunities in a few months as there are now... today i noticed that one of the places i had looked at with longing no longer has a "for rent" sign outside. i hope that putting this off isn't a mistake. i love being close to david, and i know i won't be unhappy staying with my parents. i just want things to be good for us, and i thought that having my own apartment would be. but if it's not good for him, then it's not good for us. and if it's not good for us, then it's not good for me. simple as that. anyway, if i end up having to go to big rapids, then we can get an apartment together out there, because he's going to have to go to school out there too. the only thing that i'm concerned about as far as that goes is that i'm an art student... i mean... i'm applying at kendall... i'm a jewelry major. i do need to get a degree in business, i know, but i can achieve that here if i have to. kendall has an amazing metalsmithing program, and it would be perfect for me. if i AM going to have to go to big rapids, then how am i going to take classes at kendall? man, it's really frustrating trying to go to 3 schools at once.
anyway, the main reason that i wanted to write this tonight was to express how much i adore my boyfriend and how he means the world to me and to say "david, i love you." the future is yet to be revealed... i don't know exactly where i'm heading with that last thing, but either way, my relationship with david is the best thing that i have ever had. no matter what ends up happening with school, i will always love him and everything will work out perfectly in the end.