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havent updated in a while. i totally hate my life. yesterday was awful. today is worse. sumtimes i wander if i droped dead if anyone would care. i feel like i got no where to go. or no one to talk to. i know i have a few people i can talk to. but right now i go no one. yesterday i found out john is dateing lisa. ( lisa is one of my good friends) and i got all upset. i miss john alot. ( he called me last night by the way) and also yesterday Cori got really upset toward the end of spectrum. and D and me were trying to figure out whats wrong wit her. also my ma was being nuts so i was under alot of stress which i was glad tom was there. so i got to talk to him. and i felt a lil better. excpecially after he hugged me! lol. today was awful. my sisters were beating on me. and i was just minding my own business. and my olda sis took the head of my flute and took it with her when she went out really fast. i got really pissed off. then she came home and i screamed at her. and i got it back then she pushed me and coverd my mouth. she fiannly let me go and i just went in the other room. and thats when the tears came. and i was like man my life sucks. i hate it! tom is like everything good im my life. i dont know what i would do wit out him. phil either! im gonna go. COMMENT! lots of love and god bless.. sorry for the longness