Jan 28, 2005 22:10
this has been a great day. NOT im pissed. i hate this okay so after school me and coley go to turn in my pink paper for next year gavin calls tells us to hurry then all this stuff happens not gunna go into detail. we lost a cheerleader today. a really good one. i feel so bad. it sucks cause we haveta change alot. and we are gunna haveta work our butts off for state. idk i love all the cheerleaders and please lets stay together as a squad as long as we can. lets make it to state.
besides that idk today i was just like blah. idk i want something more i dont understand life anymore. everything is so weird with people anymore. i was all talkin to my parents at dinner and i said something about a friend n my parents are like woah u never takl bout them anymore how are tehy blah blah blah. they actually cared. and then i say to myself. yeah i never believed all those people who told us in jr high that the friends we have now probably wont be our friends in high school. i never believed them. guess waht i was wrong. i shoulda.. i shoulda lived up those memories. im so happy that im really tyte with a bunch of differnet people now. but its almost like i dont fit in with a grip of peolpe n its hella gay. cause i dont want those firends who say they are ur friends and tehn backstab you. and i don twant those friends who talk shit behind your back. todays just made me realize friends like choose them wisly you know.. and just ugh. things please get better.
i love all of my friends.... forever and always.. cheerleaders we will get through it.
<333 aUsTiN.