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I know why I've been depressed for the past couple of days. Kyle has noticed it somewhat and has always asked me whats wrong. I've been tired and cranky so thats what I've been telling him but I also knew deep down that there was something else bugging me but I havnt told him or anyone bc I didnt know what it was exactly until this morning.
Recently it was just brought up that I have to prepare for my parents divorce. I have to live with the fact that my dad may be falling out of love with my mom. I will be there for my mom to put the pieces together. Im used to having my heart broken by men that were so important to me. I know what to say to her and how to cope. That isnt all thats bugging me though. Im confused about Kyle. He's always been there to help me and Ive counted on him as my closest guy friend but also trying to rekindle his affections for me. I miss the look in his eyes and the tone in his voice when he thought he loved me.
I stopped getting jealous bc theres no point to it. If we are meant to be then I'll win him back, if not then I will move on. No point in torturing myself now over something that may or may not happen in the future. I can't dwell its just me upsetting myself.
Recently it was just brought up that I have to prepare for my parents divorce. I have to live with the fact that my dad may be falling out of love with my mom. I will be there for my mom to put the pieces together. Im used to having my heart broken by men that were so important to me. I know what to say to her and how to cope. That isnt all thats bugging me though. Im confused about Kyle. He's always been there to help me and Ive counted on him as my closest guy friend but also trying to rekindle his affections for me. I miss the look in his eyes and the tone in his voice when he thought he loved me.
I stopped getting jealous bc theres no point to it. If we are meant to be then I'll win him back, if not then I will move on. No point in torturing myself now over something that may or may not happen in the future. I can't dwell its just me upsetting myself.