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i hate my self. i'm having one of those days that just puts everything to persictive. i'm wound so tight if you stuck coal up my butt you'd soon find a dimond. i just want to be normal and not care about things like everyone else. i'm never going to get a guy cause i can't talk to them and i'm afraid of something but i don't know what. and its like when i tell people they just say oh its not hard just talk to them or whatever but i can't i'm shy i'm not like everyone else. i'm just so sick of caring about everything all the time i make my self sick worrying about the stupidest little things that wont even matter tomorrow. and everyone thinks i'm a pushover and they can walk all over me and just tease and make fun of me and it will be good for laughs. i just want to be able to do things like talk to boys and not cry about everything and not freak out about everything. i just don't know how much longer i can go before i just explod.
eliza
eliza