our love was comfortable

[princessartemis]

This weekend's experiences have blown my mind. Just when you think things are going to be alright, you end up being violated in the single worst way possible. I feel like its been my fault, there are so many things that I could have done to prevent it. And now I can't think or breathe or function properly. The city is a dangerous place, and only now do I have the sickening taste of that reality lingering in everything that I do. I'm disgusted, hurt, and dumbfounded by this new human violence that I was content to aviod from hearing the horror stories. Unfortunatly, I guess my trusting nature was lead astray this time, and now I can only hope karma will run its proper course. I wish I had never come back here, I wish I could be with the people that love me. I wish so much, but there isn't much that can be done now. So, now, a little more jaded than I ever wanted to be, I'm going to study for my exams. I love you all so much. I'm in a rather miserable place and I'd love to hear from any of you.
Play safe kiddies. All my love,
Niki