Light that smoke, that one for giving up on me...
*On ConstaNt RoTation: FaLL oUT BoY-Take this to your grave, Taking Back Sunday-Tell all your friends, Motion City Soundtrack-CoMMit this to memOry
*On OcCasiOnaL RoTation: Hawthorne Heights *can't get enough of Ohio is for lovers =)
wow, so i've been busy doin things that college students do...studyin...workin...partyin...ah, i hate having a 9:00 class i can't make myself wanna get up! gosh! i turned down 3rd key at moviestop and officially quit. i applied at gamestop cuz bob asked me to but i don't have the heart nor the time to sell video games. so wednesday night and friday night were pretty wild! yeauh! i love bein 18 and i can't wait to see what 19 brings in the next few weeks mr. right? maybe...hopefully...would be nice. everytime i look at that 40-year-old-virgin poster it grosses me out! one, it looks like mr. goslee slightly. two, it reminds me that i'm an 18-year-old one. how is mah life so dreadfully pathetic?! i mean i could go out and get completely fucked up and get laid by some random guy but i don't want that. i feel i deserve just a lil bit better than that. i want it to mean something and i don't wanna contract 12 vds in the process. thank you bryan and jermaine for pointin that out. maybe you guys do kno a thing or two about life. oh so for mah birthday (friday, july 15th) i wanna do something fun and exciting but i don't really kno what to do. last year we went to chuckE.cheese for the kid in all of us but iono what to do this year cuz at heart i'm not really the same anymore yannoe. living life day to day is like an "existential, out of body experience" lol i'm just fuckin wit ya'll i'm strate, but i've definitely grown a hell of a lot the past year. i've gotten rid of some bad habits and picked up a few. i need to sit back and reevaluate this past year. i've also gotta kick this procrastinatin habit again! i can't stay motivated wit so many distractions. how tha hell am i supposed to finish mah a.a. by next fall if i keep goin tha way i'm goin? i think i still wanna be a nurse, but i'm starting to get tired of goin to school yannoe. college is staring to feel like high school only attendance is not required and i'm lovin that shiet. so while experencing an "existential, out of body experience" some how it was brought to light that i cheated on chris. thank you jermaine. so no i technically didn't cheat on him. i wasn't messin around wit otha people. i made a mistake i'll admit, but i don't consider it cheating. i mean come on it was new years and i pecked a friend on the lips it wasn't a big deal which is why it was kept low. okay, so i probably should have said something, but i didn't and i'm sorry. i'm sorry if you feel like i did something wrong, but i can't take it back and whats done is done. no, i'm not a great decision maker which has been brought to light this past week. but yannoe what fuck it. if i was peferct i wouldn't be me and that would be no fun. so on that note imma end this and go do something constructive. or attempt to anyway.
"Light that smoke, that smoke for giving up on me And one just cause they'll kill you sooner than my expectations..." (nO true significance to what is running through my head i just like the song =P )
*On OcCasiOnaL RoTation: Hawthorne Heights *can't get enough of Ohio is for lovers =)
wow, so i've been busy doin things that college students do...studyin...workin...partyin...ah, i hate having a 9:00 class i can't make myself wanna get up! gosh! i turned down 3rd key at moviestop and officially quit. i applied at gamestop cuz bob asked me to but i don't have the heart nor the time to sell video games. so wednesday night and friday night were pretty wild! yeauh! i love bein 18 and i can't wait to see what 19 brings in the next few weeks mr. right? maybe...hopefully...would be nice. everytime i look at that 40-year-old-virgin poster it grosses me out! one, it looks like mr. goslee slightly. two, it reminds me that i'm an 18-year-old one. how is mah life so dreadfully pathetic?! i mean i could go out and get completely fucked up and get laid by some random guy but i don't want that. i feel i deserve just a lil bit better than that. i want it to mean something and i don't wanna contract 12 vds in the process. thank you bryan and jermaine for pointin that out. maybe you guys do kno a thing or two about life. oh so for mah birthday (friday, july 15th) i wanna do something fun and exciting but i don't really kno what to do. last year we went to chuckE.cheese for the kid in all of us but iono what to do this year cuz at heart i'm not really the same anymore yannoe. living life day to day is like an "existential, out of body experience" lol i'm just fuckin wit ya'll i'm strate, but i've definitely grown a hell of a lot the past year. i've gotten rid of some bad habits and picked up a few. i need to sit back and reevaluate this past year. i've also gotta kick this procrastinatin habit again! i can't stay motivated wit so many distractions. how tha hell am i supposed to finish mah a.a. by next fall if i keep goin tha way i'm goin? i think i still wanna be a nurse, but i'm starting to get tired of goin to school yannoe. college is staring to feel like high school only attendance is not required and i'm lovin that shiet. so while experencing an "existential, out of body experience" some how it was brought to light that i cheated on chris. thank you jermaine. so no i technically didn't cheat on him. i wasn't messin around wit otha people. i made a mistake i'll admit, but i don't consider it cheating. i mean come on it was new years and i pecked a friend on the lips it wasn't a big deal which is why it was kept low. okay, so i probably should have said something, but i didn't and i'm sorry. i'm sorry if you feel like i did something wrong, but i can't take it back and whats done is done. no, i'm not a great decision maker which has been brought to light this past week. but yannoe what fuck it. if i was peferct i wouldn't be me and that would be no fun. so on that note imma end this and go do something constructive. or attempt to anyway.
"Light that smoke, that smoke for giving up on me And one just cause they'll kill you sooner than my expectations..." (nO true significance to what is running through my head i just like the song =P )