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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
letter 2 jennii
Current mood: contemplative
so jennii wrote to me saying that i'm stupid for thinking she lied and being selfish ... ok fine she didn't necessarily lie i'll give you that one but she was willing to sell me out for them ... ok yes i'm being selfish but i'm allowed to b.c she used to argue with me when i chilled with Alexa but i introduced you guys and she was my friend first (remember?) thats not what i'm saying but i am saying i don't like her totally leaving me for them ... nobody is perfect i'm just saying i'm mad ... i write about it oh well the corld can read it I HAVE NO SECRETS and i write to vent ... i gave Ale everything i had of hers ... not so subtle sign of saying give me my shit ... i really like cheerleading but i don't wanna go anymore ... yes Sasha lied to me but she read what i wrote earlier and understands thats just me and she's not mad she didn't apologize either ... i don't want her to i love her and its ok because she would stick up for me when i'm right or when i'm wrong and when i need her she's always by my side and lets me know she appreciates me ... thats a friend worth keeping ... anyway so here's what i wrote
well regardless whether you lied to me or not ... you were cold with me ... why? cause you made friends with the people I CHOSE TO STOP TALKING TO? i really don't give a shit about Mau or Ale ... they're not all they make themselves up to be, but thats your shit ... about david he and i will be friends again some day far from now but eventually and i could give 3 shits about you being his friend b.c if he's nothing else the one thing that kid is : is a good friend ... everyone else doesn't seem to have a problem with me JC Ronald Caro Carlos Jorge ... so big deal Mau Ale and David aren't my friends i believe 2 of the three is because of a coscious decision i made ... and Ale ... writing little livejournals about me ... ofcourse i'm gunna get mad at her ... you were on my side at one point but what happened?!? i guess you saw you could have fund with them and ... bye caro!! right?!? ok fine your problem ... don't be on my ass nobody asked you to ... you even told me that you never read my blogs so why are you reading them now?!? let me guess Ale read it and called you 911 ... i called you on saturday cuz Ronald was gunna sell out and without even hesitating you were like well no cuz i'm going with Mau & David ... ok fine you were the one calling me earlier that day to chill at night you KNOW i won't chill with them and if you asked me to go someplace with you instead of with Ale or anyone i would leave them to go with you but i should've learned by now jennii only does lo que le conviene (can't spell in spanish) get over it i write blogs when i'm frustrated and i am because i thought i had 3 bestfriends and i don't Ale for sure is no best friend just wait until her mom makes a complaint about you ... you obviously have no problem acting like you're too good for me ... damn you'd think if i were going to the same club my "best friend" were going to we'd make plans to go together or when we saw eachother we'd atleast stay together 5 minutes ... momo didn't even say hi to me ... neither did Marina ... not that i give a fuck ... just goes to show people are only nice cuando le conviene ... so there chill with Mau all you want when you get sick of him talking shit i'll be here chill with Ale all you want when she starts selling you out and disappointing you making out with everyone you introduce her to etc ... i'll still be here ... when momo gets mad @ you b.c she doesn't have you all to herself i'll be here ((i like her but everytime she sees me its like "oh... its you... uhm ... hi" if she doesn't like me thn damnit don't say hi at all and when we got in tat stupid arguement at ur house you even told me she doesn't like meso why act?!? and then i look like the retard yelling hi momo and she half smiles)) ... i'll be here because i love you and i went through the same thing i thought i didn't need anyone ... not even you ... but people aren't made of steel ... you need good friends and other dependable people at your side because thats just human nature ... it took Ronald and Little Caro telling me that i had turned into an Ale that i thought and acted like her and that nobody liked it at all for me to realize that it was true ... when you told me i thought well what the fuck does she know she hasn't been around ... and when Sasha told me she just made it seem like jealousy i mean she said she was jealous so thats all i thought it was but its true around Ale i became another person ... now i look back and i don't like it i mean like i said i don't have anything against her she's cool to hang out with but she's like a Yesenia cool to chill with once a week or so not to get too close to b.c SHE'S NEVER GOING TO BE THE TYPE OF PERSON TO STICK UP FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT ... you know that i have changed just as much as you and i admit that before i was scared to stand up for myself & my friends but now i'm not i'll stand by you even if you're wrong and i mean it this time because friendship has taken a whole other meaning to me now ... when our families pass away (god forbid)... who are you left with?!? ... i'm going to be left with my brother me and my friends and i might aswell make sure that the friends i have are worth calling family because one day they will be ... you are worth it i love you with all my heart as you can see i know how to admit when i'm wrong i know its selfish of me not wanting you to forget about me for them ... but hey! what do you expect i'm only human and i feel really alone ... and guess who's NOT by my side ... you ... of all people you ... the one who said "but if Ale's your friend why would she write that?" well i guess she's not ... Sasha is worth it because yes she is a sell out but every chance that sasha gets to show me that she cares and that she loves me she does ... i woke my ass up @ 830 in the morning to go see her b.c noel found out she was cheating on him ... yeah! they've been going out!! well she lied to me but lie or no lie i woke up and drove from ronald's to her house just to sit there and listen and even though she was wrong i yelled right back at noel and found a way to defend her ... thats the type of friend i've become its up to you whether you want my friendship right now or not ... but eventually you will and like i said ... I WILL BE HERE ... - love always, Carolina
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letter 2 jennii
Current mood: contemplative
so jennii wrote to me saying that i'm stupid for thinking she lied and being selfish ... ok fine she didn't necessarily lie i'll give you that one but she was willing to sell me out for them ... ok yes i'm being selfish but i'm allowed to b.c she used to argue with me when i chilled with Alexa but i introduced you guys and she was my friend first (remember?) thats not what i'm saying but i am saying i don't like her totally leaving me for them ... nobody is perfect i'm just saying i'm mad ... i write about it oh well the corld can read it I HAVE NO SECRETS and i write to vent ... i gave Ale everything i had of hers ... not so subtle sign of saying give me my shit ... i really like cheerleading but i don't wanna go anymore ... yes Sasha lied to me but she read what i wrote earlier and understands thats just me and she's not mad she didn't apologize either ... i don't want her to i love her and its ok because she would stick up for me when i'm right or when i'm wrong and when i need her she's always by my side and lets me know she appreciates me ... thats a friend worth keeping ... anyway so here's what i wrote
well regardless whether you lied to me or not ... you were cold with me ... why? cause you made friends with the people I CHOSE TO STOP TALKING TO? i really don't give a shit about Mau or Ale ... they're not all they make themselves up to be, but thats your shit ... about david he and i will be friends again some day far from now but eventually and i could give 3 shits about you being his friend b.c if he's nothing else the one thing that kid is : is a good friend ... everyone else doesn't seem to have a problem with me JC Ronald Caro Carlos Jorge ... so big deal Mau Ale and David aren't my friends i believe 2 of the three is because of a coscious decision i made ... and Ale ... writing little livejournals about me ... ofcourse i'm gunna get mad at her ... you were on my side at one point but what happened?!? i guess you saw you could have fund with them and ... bye caro!! right?!? ok fine your problem ... don't be on my ass nobody asked you to ... you even told me that you never read my blogs so why are you reading them now?!? let me guess Ale read it and called you 911 ... i called you on saturday cuz Ronald was gunna sell out and without even hesitating you were like well no cuz i'm going with Mau & David ... ok fine you were the one calling me earlier that day to chill at night you KNOW i won't chill with them and if you asked me to go someplace with you instead of with Ale or anyone i would leave them to go with you but i should've learned by now jennii only does lo que le conviene (can't spell in spanish) get over it i write blogs when i'm frustrated and i am because i thought i had 3 bestfriends and i don't Ale for sure is no best friend just wait until her mom makes a complaint about you ... you obviously have no problem acting like you're too good for me ... damn you'd think if i were going to the same club my "best friend" were going to we'd make plans to go together or when we saw eachother we'd atleast stay together 5 minutes ... momo didn't even say hi to me ... neither did Marina ... not that i give a fuck ... just goes to show people are only nice cuando le conviene ... so there chill with Mau all you want when you get sick of him talking shit i'll be here chill with Ale all you want when she starts selling you out and disappointing you making out with everyone you introduce her to etc ... i'll still be here ... when momo gets mad @ you b.c she doesn't have you all to herself i'll be here ((i like her but everytime she sees me its like "oh... its you... uhm ... hi" if she doesn't like me thn damnit don't say hi at all and when we got in tat stupid arguement at ur house you even told me she doesn't like meso why act?!? and then i look like the retard yelling hi momo and she half smiles)) ... i'll be here because i love you and i went through the same thing i thought i didn't need anyone ... not even you ... but people aren't made of steel ... you need good friends and other dependable people at your side because thats just human nature ... it took Ronald and Little Caro telling me that i had turned into an Ale that i thought and acted like her and that nobody liked it at all for me to realize that it was true ... when you told me i thought well what the fuck does she know she hasn't been around ... and when Sasha told me she just made it seem like jealousy i mean she said she was jealous so thats all i thought it was but its true around Ale i became another person ... now i look back and i don't like it i mean like i said i don't have anything against her she's cool to hang out with but she's like a Yesenia cool to chill with once a week or so not to get too close to b.c SHE'S NEVER GOING TO BE THE TYPE OF PERSON TO STICK UP FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT ... you know that i have changed just as much as you and i admit that before i was scared to stand up for myself & my friends but now i'm not i'll stand by you even if you're wrong and i mean it this time because friendship has taken a whole other meaning to me now ... when our families pass away (god forbid)... who are you left with?!? ... i'm going to be left with my brother me and my friends and i might aswell make sure that the friends i have are worth calling family because one day they will be ... you are worth it i love you with all my heart as you can see i know how to admit when i'm wrong i know its selfish of me not wanting you to forget about me for them ... but hey! what do you expect i'm only human and i feel really alone ... and guess who's NOT by my side ... you ... of all people you ... the one who said "but if Ale's your friend why would she write that?" well i guess she's not ... Sasha is worth it because yes she is a sell out but every chance that sasha gets to show me that she cares and that she loves me she does ... i woke my ass up @ 830 in the morning to go see her b.c noel found out she was cheating on him ... yeah! they've been going out!! well she lied to me but lie or no lie i woke up and drove from ronald's to her house just to sit there and listen and even though she was wrong i yelled right back at noel and found a way to defend her ... thats the type of friend i've become its up to you whether you want my friendship right now or not ... but eventually you will and like i said ... I WILL BE HERE ... - love always, Carolina
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