omigod...I'm buzzing or drunk...whatever
Well, first off...I stayed up all night preparing my notes for my test (on Fri. morn.) so I could start to study. Then I studied them for about 20 mins...knew them a little...not enough...but decided around 2:30am I would go to bed & wake up at 7am & study some more before the exam at 8am...well, I finally fell asleep around 5ish...alarm went off at 6am...hit snooze 100 times...changed it to 7am around 6:30am...& yet again, hit snooze until 7:27am...got up...read my notes for 10mins. Then decided to check my email...BPC never fucking cancels classes...& guess what...they fucking cancelled classes...so no exam, so I could have slept instead of preparing for my exam that I didn't even really study for. Plus, if I had really believed that we were going to have a northeastern snow storm I would have went home on Thurs. night, but BPC usually doesn't cancel classes no matter what...but they did...I hate them. So, I went to breakfast at 8am, then showered around 9:10am, then went w/ Peach & Britt to pick up Christian at the bus station...his bus was delayed, so we got D & D & waited. Went back to school around 1ish Jess came to my room to ask what we could do...so around 3ish I decided we could get chinese food, & then later go see "In the Mix." Well, around 3 something, Kristin & I went to get the snow off her car & warm it up & all that good shit...well, we got all the snow off her car & even tho. the snow, was above her doors, but I tried to get her car out b/c she hasn't really ever driven in the snow. Well, her car got stuck...& we tried very hard to get it unstuck...so after about 20-30 mins. we called Peach & Christian to tell them to come help push...well, that didn't work either. So, we called Campus Safety & I bitched b/c they are dumb mothafucka's. Well, after about an 1-2hr. we finally got unstuck...Kristin wanted me to drive, I'm so not used to driving an automatic (even tho. they should be easier, except I'm used to driving a stick & having my clutch to help me slow down). But all in all...I did GREAT:) No accidents...I did good:) So anyway...we found Jess...& we told her we would come back to get her for the movie after Chinese food.
Next step in the phase...Sorta got lost...but I was so close...finally found the chinese buffet place...ate some good chinese food...tried squid for the first time. It was OK...anyway...good food I love Chinese food, it's my fav. Well, for one thing I'm not driving my own car (which I usually can't find my car when I park it), so I went to the first Saturn I saw (even tho. I knew we didn't park that close), well I tried the botton for the lock & it wasn't working...I kept trying...tried the key & it didn't fit...so Christian started shaking the car...threw the keys to Kristin...she couldn't get the botton or the key to work...finally, Kristin looks after about 5 mins of trying to get into the fucking car...& says "when did I get a spoiler?" & that's when we fucking realized it wasn't Kristin's fucking car...we felt like fucking asses, but it was funny as fuck:) Good Times, yo!
2nd step...well, maybe not...but here we go...Get to the school to get Jess...running late as it is...get there 15 mins late...& these fucking immature kids were being annoying as all fuck...I wanted to kill them, but I didn't realize they were so young & I didn't want to die over a movie & stupid dumb fucking kids. So Jess flipped out on the kids...Chilled out tho. & held her cool (for the most part) to the end of the movie & that's when she lost it & was in their face screaming shit. Plus, one of the kids was thrown on Kristin, & he put his naked ass on Kristin's head. So, after the movie Jess...& the kids were going to fight, but fuck they were little kids & she would get in so much trouble...Plus, the kids wanted her to wait 15 mins & I didn't want some gangbanger's showing up & killing us...so I got the car warmed up & we left, but Jess was so fucking pissed & I feel bad, but also, the fucking kids pissed me the fuck off, b/c I knew Jess was upset, so I didn't really enjoy the movie, plus the kids were fucking assholes.
Then, came back to school...wanted to go to bed...Kristin had me help her find the packy store. Found it...got alcohol...she went to the boy's house (Matt, Adam, & Royce), Peach, Christian, & I drank...played one game of Drunk Driver (that's cool shit), & 3 or 4 of Asshole...I guess I'm drunk...not sure...I guess I don't know what the differences between buzzing & drunk is for me...so maybe that means I'm drunk...but not that drunk...at least as drunk as I've been when I have recorded some shit...not talking about...most ppl know what I mean. So yea, writing in my livejournal & then going to read Harry Potter (well, attempt) & watch 13 Ghosts. God, I'm fucking hott! Not sexy...hott, but temperature hott...& my head fucking hurts bad...Peach gave me meds, but it fucking hurts. Um...what else...oh yea...Rob supposed to call today & hasn't & its the first time I've actually been drunk or close to drunk & he doesn't call or answer his cell or house (but nobody answered the house phone?) So I don't know what that means. Anyway, he better at least call at some point or I hate him...JK...the sad, scary thing is I love him...why...god only knows...god...I think I just feel like typing shit...I'm going to pour my heart out...I love Robert Scott Petrisko, since I was in 7th grade...he moved when I started 8th grade, not a day has gone by that I haven't thought about him...which is (as of today...2,595 (roughly) times). For the past 2-3 weeks (b/c he told me for real this time that he wants to move back & fuck that's all I've ever wanted since he moved over 7 yrs. ago...I haven't been able to fall asleep until about 4am...b/c all I can think about is when it will happen, will it happen, how will it happen, will it happen, does he really mean it, can he actually mean it for once, if he really didn't like me why would he say the shit he does?, will it happen, when will it happen, I want it to happen now, I can't wait any longer, I want to be fucking happy for once, but what if Rob is already happy?, is it fair to ruin his happiness; just b/c I want to be happy?, does he really love me or what?, why do I really love him, what is it about this kid that makes me so insane, why do I think about him at least once a day, shouldn't that mean something, does that mean something, or am I just fucking crazy & stupid for wanting his kid & waiting?, should I just start being a whore & getting w/ any guy that will take me, fuck no, dudes have to meet my standards & most fucking don't, does Rob, I don't know, But for some fucking reason I love this kid w/ all my fucking heat & I haven't even been w/ him ever (in that way), or really seen him or even really talked in over 7 yrs., I really don't know what he is like, but I want him, WHY? Seriously, I just want to know why. That's why he needs to come back soon, so I can find out...plus, I'm sick of not being happy...I WANT TO BE HAPPY MORE THAN ANYTHING...& HAVE SOMEBODY IN MY LIFE THAT CARES ABOUT ME & I CAN CARE ABOUT...& SOMEBODY THAT LOVES ME FOR ME:) I would do fucking anything for this fucking kid...& in a way I don't know b/c he finally called. I'm going to stop now b/c Rob is on the phone, but he will probably get off soon.
natasha~