update on my life
Last Fri. I was supposed go see Rob & his 'rents b/c they were in Greenfield, MA, but he was drunk & said he couldn't tell me directions. So I went to Denny's
w/ Kris & Christian. Rob called me & wanted me to bring him alcohol. His dad yelled at me about being mean to his son. I talked to his dad, mom, & his aunt.
His dad hung up on me & I called back & then Rob hung up on me, but called me back. He told me that since I said no to him when he asked me out, that I had
lost my chance w/ him. Plus, he told me to get naked 5 times & to get a condom (the night I stayed at his house), so I lost my chance at having sex w/ him, too. I
told him that I do want to date him, I just thought since he was drunk & I was crying that he was just asking me out to make me feel better & that's why I said no.
Then on Sat. he was going to come visit me w/ his cousin, but his cousin never showed up, so I drove to Bratt. to get him & brought him back to school w/ me.
Things were going fine, until I told him that when he said he was going to go to the party a KSC...I was afraid he would fool around w/ some chick, so in order to
get back at him, I just wanted to find somebody to mess w/, but I tried to STRESS the fact that I can't do that, b/c I ONLY WANT HIM; but he took it the wrong
way & got pissed at me & told me he hated me & went to bed. Then on Sun. Christian brought him home. Then Sun. night after work I drove to Bratt. & spent
the night. I guess I was moaning & saying yea in my sleep. So he laughed at me everytime I would wake up. Then Mon. I drove back to school, went to classes.
I have not done any HW at all (except read for Dave's class) for 2 weeks. So today Peach & I are going to get started on our research project, then I'm going to
try to get all my HW done for Bonneau's class (on Tues.). That way I won't have a lot to do this wkend or next week. Plus, at some pt. I have to work out. Oh
yea, on Mon. I cut most of my hair off. Its OK...its diff. I like it & I don't. Its nice b/c it doesn't take a lot of work to get ready in the morn., but also, its shorter.
I hope Rob likes it...I don't want him to not like me b/c of my hair:( All well, he'll just have to deal. Another thing is...since Rob said I lost my chance w/ him...I
was thinking that maybe if I asked him out maybe he would say yes. Well, the other night he told me that I would have to try to ask him out now. I'm totally cool
w/ doing that, but I want to have a talk w/ him first; to make sure that we're going to be in a commited relationship & if we have any problems, we'll talk to each
other & try to work through it. B/c I don't want to lose him & never be able to see him again. Well, I have to get to work on this research project.
Natasha ~