Don't know what to do
This week has been really hard for me. Sunday night me and Eric had this huge blow out. He said he didn't know what he wanted anymore, that he thinks about other girls, that our fighting shows we shouldn't be together, and worst of all... he told me he didn't love me anymore. I was totally heart broken. How can someone say that to you and not mean it?? Eric said that he did feel that way at one time but not anymore. I felt like my heart was ripped out and stomped on over and over again. The one person I have loved the most no longer loved me. I devoted so much time and effort into our relationship and this is what I get? Someone who yells at me and ends up not loving me anymore.
We both decided to take a break and to see other people. This way we could figure out if we were really meant for each other. But since Sunday night it has been hard to stop thinking about him and to stop missing him. To him I act like I am ok now and that I don't really care or miss him. We talked on the phone today and decided to keep things going the way they are until Sunday night. Then we will both talk about how we feel and decide what to do from there.
My feelings are all over the place, just like his. I wanna be with him, and then I don't. I wanna be with him cuz I love and miss him plus he is my best friend. I don't wanna be with him if all we are gonna do is fight... that isn't a relationship. I think that if he matured a lil and figured out what he wanted in alot of aspects of his life, we would be fine together. I miss him like crazy and at the same time its good to be away from him. I am so tore up and run down. I can't take feeling like this anymore. I wish I could just figure things out.
We both decided to take a break and to see other people. This way we could figure out if we were really meant for each other. But since Sunday night it has been hard to stop thinking about him and to stop missing him. To him I act like I am ok now and that I don't really care or miss him. We talked on the phone today and decided to keep things going the way they are until Sunday night. Then we will both talk about how we feel and decide what to do from there.
My feelings are all over the place, just like his. I wanna be with him, and then I don't. I wanna be with him cuz I love and miss him plus he is my best friend. I don't wanna be with him if all we are gonna do is fight... that isn't a relationship. I think that if he matured a lil and figured out what he wanted in alot of aspects of his life, we would be fine together. I miss him like crazy and at the same time its good to be away from him. I am so tore up and run down. I can't take feeling like this anymore. I wish I could just figure things out.