A couple things...
Disclaimer: I say what's on my mind and refuse to edit myself for any reason, so if you aren't looking for a little TMI I think it might be wise if you just move along.
First off, I'm very entertained by a certain turn of events on the internetz:
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=526172&blogId=482319385
I'd say that is one woman scorned and even a devilman isn't safe.
I never thought I was special but to not even make the list??? Psh! I'm a little offended....I did stay with the guy for a week.
Assuming that it isn't a fake, I'm thinking it might be wise to go get checked out. Ick! Yeah, he told me a pretty low number too.....what a jackass!
Moving on...
So lately I've been frustrated with a certain situation that I have no control over (probably for no other reason than that I have no control over it). Basically I had a friend who I had a mild crush on....not the most handsome fella in the world but he was just a lot of fun...plus he had that whole tall, skinny thing going on which I'm a complete sucker for. I really only started talking to him because he and one of my girl friends - I'd say probably the most awesome woman I've ever met - would hang out and sometimes I would tag along. She and I were the biggest flirts. We would have so much fun talking about how hot so-and-so was and things of that nature. She was just all around a fun person to hang out with. So one day she asks me if I like our mutual friend and I say I think he's cute but I'm really not looking for anything more than just a little fun. She then tells me how he told her that he's wanting something serious and how sensitive our friend is, saying that he told her that he's the type of guy who is easily hurt. We both agreed that it would be best just to leave it alone but we still flirted with him like mad and he enjoyed it. Well, as time went on I lost contact with my girl friend but would still see our guy friend at a bar I visit all the time. We'd talk all the time. He'd look out for me (warn me about certain scumbags) and joke around with me. I confided in him. I told him my secrets of world domination (things you don't just tell everyone). I just felt we had a good friend connection. Apparently I was wrong.
One night I see him out and he's absolutely ignoring me. Just a nod of the head or some sort of short hello and that was it. It stayed that way after that. Every time I saw him, on the multiple nights per week at the club, it was the same cold shoulder and it drove me nuts. I felt terrible. He would never answer my texts. Sometimes I'd go so far as to hang out in his general vicinity with mutual friends some nights just to test if he really was ignoring me and he'd manage to pull some sort of show, it seemed, just for them like he was as cool with me as everyone else. I'd just sit there gauging his reactions, wanting to say something to him, to call him out or something.....anything, feeling like a well trained attack dog ready to let loose at the snap of a finger.
So yes, it has been slowly eating away at me and I don't know why. I now purposely stay as far away from him as I can while still being in the same club.
This whole situation wouldn't bother me so much if I just knew why he suddenly decided he didn't want to talk to me. Some sort of explanation. A simple, "You smell." would make me happy just so long as that would clear it up....but it's hard to talk to someone about it when they are never alone and never answer any form of messaging you send their way.
I know I shouldn't care and should drop it....but that's exactly what I've been trying to do for weeks. I wish he WOULD move away (he got my hopes up for a second) and never come back just so I could just forget about the entire thing.
I'm just so sick of it!
First off, I'm very entertained by a certain turn of events on the internetz:
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=526172&blogId=482319385
I'd say that is one woman scorned and even a devilman isn't safe.
I never thought I was special but to not even make the list??? Psh! I'm a little offended....I did stay with the guy for a week.
Assuming that it isn't a fake, I'm thinking it might be wise to go get checked out. Ick! Yeah, he told me a pretty low number too.....what a jackass!
Moving on...
So lately I've been frustrated with a certain situation that I have no control over (probably for no other reason than that I have no control over it). Basically I had a friend who I had a mild crush on....not the most handsome fella in the world but he was just a lot of fun...plus he had that whole tall, skinny thing going on which I'm a complete sucker for. I really only started talking to him because he and one of my girl friends - I'd say probably the most awesome woman I've ever met - would hang out and sometimes I would tag along. She and I were the biggest flirts. We would have so much fun talking about how hot so-and-so was and things of that nature. She was just all around a fun person to hang out with. So one day she asks me if I like our mutual friend and I say I think he's cute but I'm really not looking for anything more than just a little fun. She then tells me how he told her that he's wanting something serious and how sensitive our friend is, saying that he told her that he's the type of guy who is easily hurt. We both agreed that it would be best just to leave it alone but we still flirted with him like mad and he enjoyed it. Well, as time went on I lost contact with my girl friend but would still see our guy friend at a bar I visit all the time. We'd talk all the time. He'd look out for me (warn me about certain scumbags) and joke around with me. I confided in him. I told him my secrets of world domination (things you don't just tell everyone). I just felt we had a good friend connection. Apparently I was wrong.
One night I see him out and he's absolutely ignoring me. Just a nod of the head or some sort of short hello and that was it. It stayed that way after that. Every time I saw him, on the multiple nights per week at the club, it was the same cold shoulder and it drove me nuts. I felt terrible. He would never answer my texts. Sometimes I'd go so far as to hang out in his general vicinity with mutual friends some nights just to test if he really was ignoring me and he'd manage to pull some sort of show, it seemed, just for them like he was as cool with me as everyone else. I'd just sit there gauging his reactions, wanting to say something to him, to call him out or something.....anything, feeling like a well trained attack dog ready to let loose at the snap of a finger.
So yes, it has been slowly eating away at me and I don't know why. I now purposely stay as far away from him as I can while still being in the same club.
This whole situation wouldn't bother me so much if I just knew why he suddenly decided he didn't want to talk to me. Some sort of explanation. A simple, "You smell." would make me happy just so long as that would clear it up....but it's hard to talk to someone about it when they are never alone and never answer any form of messaging you send their way.
I know I shouldn't care and should drop it....but that's exactly what I've been trying to do for weeks. I wish he WOULD move away (he got my hopes up for a second) and never come back just so I could just forget about the entire thing.
I'm just so sick of it!