it been awhile
well, i'm back for a minute, mostly just to say i'm alive and well and so sorry i'm being a flaky ljer. life is good, but busy to the max and i can't update from work, which is sadly where i have the most free time on line! oh well. so it goes. but i'm going to try to write a least one meaningful entry each week. that might not start till the middle of october when i have a minute to
breath
i think i need to start writing that into my day planner (not lj but breath) because it seems that thing runs my life these days. there is much little news and not much big news. little news. i have a new kitty, she is finally getting along with the old kitty. they play together. it is cute. little news, i'm going to be in a few shows coming up in the next month or so. not reading poetry though, dancing. this will be a change, challenging, fun. there are many people in my life i should see much more often, and i miss you all a lot. i hope you all know who you are are. i hope to see some of you soon. tonight perhaps? i hope to see all of you soon actually. more little news. new job is going really well. the hours are weird for me and that is mostly what is kicking my ass. i got used to working mornings (6-2) and now i'm working afternoon/evenings (10-6) which is so much better for the sleep, but i end up feeling like there isn't enough time in the day to do what i want to do. i also used to work thirty hour weeks and now i'm working forty hour weeks. that extra day kicks my ass. i will survive, adjust, move on, and finally my work is fulfilling and makes me smile. that is a good thing. life is amazingly good in contrast to the world. i feel so privileged now. we has our first rainy day in a long time last week. it freaked me out because i was sad all day. i could feel my mood changing with the season instantly, like someone threw a blanket over my happiness and snuffed it out. how much of that is expectation, how much biology, and how much anxiety cause i know too well what winter means for me? only time will tell, or perhaps not. but i have so much more in my life now to keep me busy, distracted, happy, or at least not sad i hope. so much for a short post to say i miss you! i've got to go to work, so i'll cut this short a bit. apparently there are things that i need to write though!
breath
i think i need to start writing that into my day planner (not lj but breath) because it seems that thing runs my life these days. there is much little news and not much big news. little news. i have a new kitty, she is finally getting along with the old kitty. they play together. it is cute. little news, i'm going to be in a few shows coming up in the next month or so. not reading poetry though, dancing. this will be a change, challenging, fun. there are many people in my life i should see much more often, and i miss you all a lot. i hope you all know who you are are. i hope to see some of you soon. tonight perhaps? i hope to see all of you soon actually. more little news. new job is going really well. the hours are weird for me and that is mostly what is kicking my ass. i got used to working mornings (6-2) and now i'm working afternoon/evenings (10-6) which is so much better for the sleep, but i end up feeling like there isn't enough time in the day to do what i want to do. i also used to work thirty hour weeks and now i'm working forty hour weeks. that extra day kicks my ass. i will survive, adjust, move on, and finally my work is fulfilling and makes me smile. that is a good thing. life is amazingly good in contrast to the world. i feel so privileged now. we has our first rainy day in a long time last week. it freaked me out because i was sad all day. i could feel my mood changing with the season instantly, like someone threw a blanket over my happiness and snuffed it out. how much of that is expectation, how much biology, and how much anxiety cause i know too well what winter means for me? only time will tell, or perhaps not. but i have so much more in my life now to keep me busy, distracted, happy, or at least not sad i hope. so much for a short post to say i miss you! i've got to go to work, so i'll cut this short a bit. apparently there are things that i need to write though!