Dec 06, 2004 03:38
"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Thanks Chesta!!!My lil homo ROCKS! I really think that i just so fitting right now for so many reasons! the whole damn thing applies to some people in my past... some of it applies to others...esp very recent situations.
So christmas party is comin up in a few weeks... and i don't think i'm going... first time since i started in '01 that i'm not planning on going.. it's kinda a weird feeling. But i'm gonna help Jess move that weekend and my mom also graduates that weekend... so really, i guess it just shows that i have moved on... there are more important things in my life that i'm not dropping to run back there! it's kinda nice!! Don't get me wrong.. i miss all of my friends that i've made over the last 4 seasons, but i'm grown up, i'm moved on, and hell! i'm moving in the middle of the season.... 2000 miles away! how would they want me to swing that one! yeah! not so much
Life has a really funny way of bringing people in and out at just the right time. Take Jess for example.. she was just randomly brought into my life this summer...i learned a ton and went thru a lot.... and then she was taken out by a total bitch... and then... just when i need a good friend... we were able to see eye to eye and she was that friend i needed... i tell you though... sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be able to get a handle on my own life... everyone elses... got that.. my own... total mess. i can't even be happy with who i want to be with b/c of like a million reasons... enough of this for the night!!! it's too late and i'm to tired to continue bitching!!
and my daily message to lil:
Keepin holdin on babe! it's like exactly 3 months until spring break... and we all know what this means!!! and when you fall in love with it... it's not long til we move. don't worry about what people say... it doesn't matter... what matters is how you feel and what you want.. no one else... you can do it babe... no worries!!! hey... uptown on the 21st??? let me know!! awesome drag show!
Night guys!!!!