Merry Christmas!!!!
first off, MERRY CHRISTMAS Everyone!!!!
second off... mike just left... omg... i have never loved anyone as much as i love him... my birthday was sooo awesome... it's been the best birthday i've ever had... it seems like my family loves him... he loves my family... and the first 15 minutes of christmas has been the best... i didn't want him to leave... i have never fallen for anyway so hard and so fast like i did for him... he's... omg... he's just perfect... i love him sooo much... i felt like i wanted to cry... i did want to cry but i refused to cause he told me how he doesn't want me to go back to school and i was like i don't either and he knew i was depressed when i thought about it so he asked me what was going on and when i was talking about it, i felt the tears building up, but i refuse to let them show... love gets so much more amazing, esp. when you find that person... honestly i can't even begin to put into words what i feel for him... dominique, you sooo understand what im saying... im just sooo flippin drunk off love and i wake up every morning hung over on cloud nine... it's ridiculous but i love every moment of it... i actually started to fall asleep in his arms for a little bit then i woke up and told him that if i fall asleep then he better wake me up then five minutes later i began to fall asleep again so he woke me up... hehe... he's sooo amazing... he's kissed me like umpteen million times, and vice versa... im telling you, if you've never seen two people in love, you sooo gotta see us two... hehe... but it was sooo cute... we were up in my room watching a movie then it ended at 11:45 then for the next half hour we were up here talking and doing some kissing... nothing hardcore... just the occasional "i love you" kisses... well at midnight, he took a bow from a bag and put it on me... and he's like you know how i told you all i want for christmas is you in a bow standing under my christmas tree... and i was like yea... and as he puts the bow on me he's like well i have you in a bow, just not under my tree... then he kissed me then he's like im gonna unwrap you now and he pulled the bow off then he kissed me... and then i did the same to him... it was sooo corny but it was cute cause people who are in love are allowed to be corny and cute... O:-) so yea... i loved it... i love him... ahh, anyway...
i've had the best birthday ever... i've heard from everyone that matters most to me today except for one person and that's john... why am i not surprised? i mean i don't care if he didn't call to wish me a happy birthday, it's still the fact that my friends called to wish me a merry christmas too and i also called some people... i don't know why i still care about him but i do... no, im not hung over him still... im over it... it's still the fact of how close we were and now all of a sudden it's like i don't matter...
this brings me to a point... i need your opinions on something... before mike and i met, he made plans to go to canada with some of his friends to see the niagara falls... he said that he really didn't want to go before hand and now he definitely doesn't want to because he wants to see me before i leave... i told him that i want him to go... i want him to see his friends, i want him to spend time with them and not to back out because of me... i don't want him taking time away from his friends because of me... relationships come and go... friends are there far longer than relationships, if not there forever... then he said something about how he now knows why his friend anthony always sees his girlfriend instead of his friends... and this is when i spoke up... i know how john shoved me to the side for his girlfriends... i know how dominique used to and how laura used to... dom and laura i talked to and they noticed and now everythings cool... i've talked to john about it and i haven't gotten through to him about it... so i told mike not to neglect his friends from me because that is one thing i have always told people i would never do... i told them that i would never neglect them for my boyfriend and i would never distract my boyfriend from his friends, no matter how serious we were... the reason why i never want to do this is because i know what it feels like to be put last on everyones list cause their significant other was always the first... i know what that feels like... and it's not a good feeling... those times are the times i never felt so lonely... i don't want my friends or his friends getting mad at us because of that... so im trying to get him to go to canada but he says he really doesn't want to... he already gave them the money... do you agree with me or do you think she should do whatever he wants even if staying here is a decision influenced by me unwillingly? i mean im trying not to make a big deal out of this because i don't want him getting upset with me, but it's just the fact im going to feel guilty that he neglected his friends and this trip just to be with me... i don't want them hating me... what should i tell him? i already told him my reasons as to why i think he should go...
anyway... im tired... most likely gotta get up early to open presents... i've never had the best time of my life like i did tonight... i love him sooo much... i can't even begin to put into words how i really feel... the feelings are just so... so... so... a-MA-zing...
second off... mike just left... omg... i have never loved anyone as much as i love him... my birthday was sooo awesome... it's been the best birthday i've ever had... it seems like my family loves him... he loves my family... and the first 15 minutes of christmas has been the best... i didn't want him to leave... i have never fallen for anyway so hard and so fast like i did for him... he's... omg... he's just perfect... i love him sooo much... i felt like i wanted to cry... i did want to cry but i refused to cause he told me how he doesn't want me to go back to school and i was like i don't either and he knew i was depressed when i thought about it so he asked me what was going on and when i was talking about it, i felt the tears building up, but i refuse to let them show... love gets so much more amazing, esp. when you find that person... honestly i can't even begin to put into words what i feel for him... dominique, you sooo understand what im saying... im just sooo flippin drunk off love and i wake up every morning hung over on cloud nine... it's ridiculous but i love every moment of it... i actually started to fall asleep in his arms for a little bit then i woke up and told him that if i fall asleep then he better wake me up then five minutes later i began to fall asleep again so he woke me up... hehe... he's sooo amazing... he's kissed me like umpteen million times, and vice versa... im telling you, if you've never seen two people in love, you sooo gotta see us two... hehe... but it was sooo cute... we were up in my room watching a movie then it ended at 11:45 then for the next half hour we were up here talking and doing some kissing... nothing hardcore... just the occasional "i love you" kisses... well at midnight, he took a bow from a bag and put it on me... and he's like you know how i told you all i want for christmas is you in a bow standing under my christmas tree... and i was like yea... and as he puts the bow on me he's like well i have you in a bow, just not under my tree... then he kissed me then he's like im gonna unwrap you now and he pulled the bow off then he kissed me... and then i did the same to him... it was sooo corny but it was cute cause people who are in love are allowed to be corny and cute... O:-) so yea... i loved it... i love him... ahh, anyway...
i've had the best birthday ever... i've heard from everyone that matters most to me today except for one person and that's john... why am i not surprised? i mean i don't care if he didn't call to wish me a happy birthday, it's still the fact that my friends called to wish me a merry christmas too and i also called some people... i don't know why i still care about him but i do... no, im not hung over him still... im over it... it's still the fact of how close we were and now all of a sudden it's like i don't matter...
this brings me to a point... i need your opinions on something... before mike and i met, he made plans to go to canada with some of his friends to see the niagara falls... he said that he really didn't want to go before hand and now he definitely doesn't want to because he wants to see me before i leave... i told him that i want him to go... i want him to see his friends, i want him to spend time with them and not to back out because of me... i don't want him taking time away from his friends because of me... relationships come and go... friends are there far longer than relationships, if not there forever... then he said something about how he now knows why his friend anthony always sees his girlfriend instead of his friends... and this is when i spoke up... i know how john shoved me to the side for his girlfriends... i know how dominique used to and how laura used to... dom and laura i talked to and they noticed and now everythings cool... i've talked to john about it and i haven't gotten through to him about it... so i told mike not to neglect his friends from me because that is one thing i have always told people i would never do... i told them that i would never neglect them for my boyfriend and i would never distract my boyfriend from his friends, no matter how serious we were... the reason why i never want to do this is because i know what it feels like to be put last on everyones list cause their significant other was always the first... i know what that feels like... and it's not a good feeling... those times are the times i never felt so lonely... i don't want my friends or his friends getting mad at us because of that... so im trying to get him to go to canada but he says he really doesn't want to... he already gave them the money... do you agree with me or do you think she should do whatever he wants even if staying here is a decision influenced by me unwillingly? i mean im trying not to make a big deal out of this because i don't want him getting upset with me, but it's just the fact im going to feel guilty that he neglected his friends and this trip just to be with me... i don't want them hating me... what should i tell him? i already told him my reasons as to why i think he should go...
anyway... im tired... most likely gotta get up early to open presents... i've never had the best time of my life like i did tonight... i love him sooo much... i can't even begin to put into words how i really feel... the feelings are just so... so... so... a-MA-zing...