Two Hundred and Eleventh Position ]Video[
Yes, I did it. I stole the hearts. Surprising, isn't it?
[It seems to be a dark spot in the underground, only light shining is red, red glow of hearts, sometimes they flicker and take the appearance of the people they belong. She's not looking at the camera, she doesn't want to show her face, full in grief and shame. Her arms are still shaking.]
I didn't realize I kept these with me when I left them to Princess Tutu. I thought I had returned them all. Their owners or friends could retrieve them, I will return them. I know what is to be without a heart, too.
[She pauses.]
Why did I do it? Maybe because I was cursed, no, because part of me always wanted to do it, but I can always stop myself. The curse just took away my choice and my control. Because I wanted my friends, all my friends, understand and be close to me. I would have returned their hearts after I made them understand. [She chokes here, because she knows what that implied: taint them as she has been tainted, as she had tainted Mytho.] Then surely, I deluded myself, they would come with me to Mytho's kingdom. We could soothe our pain together, we would fight the darkness better if we were many, instead of two.
Because without my Prince, I can't continue.
After the first hearts were taken, it was no longer about what Rue could have wanted, but what Princess Kraehe craved for. The hunger for hearts took over. That's why "I" kept thieving, out of control, targeting perfect strangers. They loved and "I" wanted that love for myself, I yearned for it.
I will only apologize to my friends and to Todd because I targeted him because he's a friend's friend, even if I'm not proud or innocent for the other crimes, because I don't feel guilty about the strangers attack. Do I feel bad for everything? I do. And, of course, you're all angered about this, so I am because I am sick and tired of being toyed this way. Go ahead, take your anger at me, I deserve it. I'm enraged too, at this City, at our writers and at myself for being so foolish and weak. You can hate me, who would blame you? I already hate myself.
But I don't want hearts. I just want... to not lose the people I love again.
I hope none of them were hurt while they lacked a heart. You had no idea what I was going to do, at least none of them-
You have no idea how unforgivable it would have been.
...
I'm sorry.
(ooc; Assume this was posted about 9:00 PM the 7, my ISP was being SO STUPID. ANYWAY, plot's over, you can assume Rue returned the hearts to the characters or log it /but I'll be slow because I still need to catch up the other log. The last heart will be returned the 8th as agreed with the mun, Rue will be cursed with the firestarter, so she'll have to control her temper. Rue had been hiding after the curse, only going to see Kaoru to return his heart, then hide/angst some moar because she was still overwhelmed with the raven's blood for a while).
[It seems to be a dark spot in the underground, only light shining is red, red glow of hearts, sometimes they flicker and take the appearance of the people they belong. She's not looking at the camera, she doesn't want to show her face, full in grief and shame. Her arms are still shaking.]
I didn't realize I kept these with me when I left them to Princess Tutu. I thought I had returned them all. Their owners or friends could retrieve them, I will return them. I know what is to be without a heart, too.
[She pauses.]
Why did I do it? Maybe because I was cursed, no, because part of me always wanted to do it, but I can always stop myself. The curse just took away my choice and my control. Because I wanted my friends, all my friends, understand and be close to me. I would have returned their hearts after I made them understand. [She chokes here, because she knows what that implied: taint them as she has been tainted, as she had tainted Mytho.] Then surely, I deluded myself, they would come with me to Mytho's kingdom. We could soothe our pain together, we would fight the darkness better if we were many, instead of two.
Because without my Prince, I can't continue.
After the first hearts were taken, it was no longer about what Rue could have wanted, but what Princess Kraehe craved for. The hunger for hearts took over. That's why "I" kept thieving, out of control, targeting perfect strangers. They loved and "I" wanted that love for myself, I yearned for it.
I will only apologize to my friends and to Todd because I targeted him because he's a friend's friend, even if I'm not proud or innocent for the other crimes, because I don't feel guilty about the strangers attack. Do I feel bad for everything? I do. And, of course, you're all angered about this, so I am because I am sick and tired of being toyed this way. Go ahead, take your anger at me, I deserve it. I'm enraged too, at this City, at our writers and at myself for being so foolish and weak. You can hate me, who would blame you? I already hate myself.
But I don't want hearts. I just want... to not lose the people I love again.
I hope none of them were hurt while they lacked a heart. You had no idea what I was going to do, at least none of them-
You have no idea how unforgivable it would have been.
...
I'm sorry.
(ooc; Assume this was posted about 9:00 PM the 7, my ISP was being SO STUPID. ANYWAY, plot's over, you can assume Rue returned the hearts to the characters or log it /but I'll be slow because I still need to catch up the other log. The last heart will be returned the 8th as agreed with the mun, Rue will be cursed with the firestarter, so she'll have to control her temper. Rue had been hiding after the curse, only going to see Kaoru to return his heart, then hide/angst some moar because she was still overwhelmed with the raven's blood for a while).