One-Hundred and Sixteenth Position
All those tears wasted. Hmpf.
Would you someone explain me what is this supposed to be? Taking advantage of my Prince's absence and my pain to invade my home speaks of cowardice! What's mine is mine and I'll protect it!
So listen to the beat of black wings.
Yes, I am feeling much better. Thank you all for the concern. I can pull myself together just fine without anyone meddling. But to know someone cares...
Private // Hard to Hack;
It was easier when no one cared about me. Those days, I had no one to worry about but my Prince and my love was absolute. Only the Prince could love me... Ahiru was there too. He came here, stayed with me, forsaking his kingdom and his call. Willingly or not, I'm sure he stayed because, as terrible this place could be, people see me as Rue and not as... as...
Doubtless the ones of his kingdom would ever regard me and love me by myself. But his place is there with them. It's so selfish... I know we will be reunited together but why do I desire him to come back to the City again? This isn't his kingdom and I know how impotent he felt when he couldn't protect everyone here. That his strength alone wasn't enough.
It is because now I have a family and friends... and the seed of doubts are planted in my heart. This is why I turned them all away, because I felt I was betraying my pain of losing the Prince by accepting their comfort. While he must be so alone... without anyone he can turn to.
This is another test, isn't it? A trial to see if I can sacrifice my heart and life for the Prince? No, I don't... I want to sacrifice my happiness for Mytho now. It didn't matter to me he wasn't as grand here as he was in my world, just to love him was enough.
I should seek a way to return. To that world where he's standing by himself. That is my choice. It hurts but I can't look back and not because he chose me as his Princess, but because I chose to be Rue for him. Right in this very moment, I love Mytho above everyone else, even myself.
((OOC: Rue's introspective time nao. She's releasing a few ravens, not many because her emotional state is not stable to feel confident over her control. Oh, this entry isn't cursed because again, she's not going to use dark powers until she feels less borderline)).
Would you someone explain me what is this supposed to be? Taking advantage of my Prince's absence and my pain to invade my home speaks of cowardice! What's mine is mine and I'll protect it!
So listen to the beat of black wings.
Yes, I am feeling much better. Thank you all for the concern. I can pull myself together just fine without anyone meddling. But to know someone cares...
Private // Hard to Hack;
It was easier when no one cared about me. Those days, I had no one to worry about but my Prince and my love was absolute. Only the Prince could love me... Ahiru was there too. He came here, stayed with me, forsaking his kingdom and his call. Willingly or not, I'm sure he stayed because, as terrible this place could be, people see me as Rue and not as... as...
Doubtless the ones of his kingdom would ever regard me and love me by myself. But his place is there with them. It's so selfish... I know we will be reunited together but why do I desire him to come back to the City again? This isn't his kingdom and I know how impotent he felt when he couldn't protect everyone here. That his strength alone wasn't enough.
It is because now I have a family and friends... and the seed of doubts are planted in my heart. This is why I turned them all away, because I felt I was betraying my pain of losing the Prince by accepting their comfort. While he must be so alone... without anyone he can turn to.
This is another test, isn't it? A trial to see if I can sacrifice my heart and life for the Prince? No, I don't... I want to sacrifice my happiness for Mytho now. It didn't matter to me he wasn't as grand here as he was in my world, just to love him was enough.
I should seek a way to return. To that world where he's standing by himself. That is my choice. It hurts but I can't look back and not because he chose me as his Princess, but because I chose to be Rue for him. Right in this very moment, I love Mytho above everyone else, even myself.
((OOC: Rue's introspective time nao. She's releasing a few ravens, not many because her emotional state is not stable to feel confident over her control. Oh, this entry isn't cursed because again, she's not going to use dark powers until she feels less borderline)).