thoughts.
She sits alone again
And tries her best not to pretend
That all she used to live for
Was the love that wasn't there
And every time she needs to do the things
That she believes
Will fill the void inside of her
Because he was never there
[2x]
And she says, 'I swear I'm not the devil,
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil'
He tries to sleep again
And wonders when the pain will end
The cuts, they may run deeper than his cracking outer shell
He looks with tired eyes
At all the people hypnotized
And wonders what can save him
From his self created hell.
[2x]
And he says, 'I swear I'm not the devil,
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil'
I always fail to see the little things in front of me
The things that mean so much to you; a way to let you know.
That I appreciate the way you always tolerate
But sometimes when I medicate
Frustration in you shows me how you feel.
But I swear I'm not the devil,
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil
And I scream,
I swear I'm not the devil.
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil.
difficult times in life right now. I don't know what to do, or how to do it. I'm so lost. I feel like i'm floating around, not able to decide which direction to go, because if i move, i'm going to go flying off in that direction and not be able to come back. you can't turn around and come back, never allowed to do that.
no matter what choice i have to make here, it will be one i won't regret. i've never made a choice like this before, and i'm not sure how. the pain is just about swallowing me alive.
lies.
i can't stand lies. i can't stand liars. i can't believe in lies. how can i believe anything when something was a lie?
Do you think I’m faking
when I’m lying next to you?
Do you think that I am blind
nothing left for me to lose?
Must be something on your mind
something lost and left behind
Do you know I’m faking now?
Do you know I’m faking
when I’m lying next to you?
Do you know that I am blind to everything you ever do?
Must be something on your mind
something lost for me to find
Do you know I’m faking?
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man
I guess you know I’m faking
when I tell you I love you
I guess you know that I am blind
to everything you say and do
Must be something on my mind
there’s nothing left for me to hide
Do you know I’m faking?
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man
We have to succumb to the feelings we can never face
I need you. I breathe you.
I can’t go through this all again.
We have to succumb to
the feelings we can never face I need you.
I breathe you. I can’t go through this…
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man
Then she told me she had a gun
she says she wants to use it on me now…