Stress
Well, today is Tuesday of Week of Welcome and I don't even plan on going near the university.
I'm so terrified of going.
I've always known that I was going to go to college. Always. I was six, and when asked about my future, it was always "college and then...." whatever my current profession was. Now, College is here, and it's so terrifying.
All elusive, all encompasing, the word college has really been intimidating me this summer. From my long coming switch from LCC to UO, to my anger in myself at not taking an AP Science class to allow myself a free year, and start as a sophomore, to this terror and the stress headaches I have been experiencing lately, because of this week.
I stick my head in the sand, just like an ostrich, and hope the world just sweeps me up and takes me away to someplace where I don't have to be responsible for myself.
I can't imagine if I was going away to college. Even as away as OSU... and to think the school I really wanted to go to was University of New Orleans.
I was seriously planning on transfering there in a year or so.
Not happening now.
At this moment, I want to be a vet. To be a vet, I will have to transfer in the next year or so, to a school that has a a vet program. OSU has one, so maybe I will end up there.
It's so scary to think that this limbo I perpetually find myself in is almost over. Maybe everything will change and get better when school starts. Maybe.
I'm so terrified of going.
I've always known that I was going to go to college. Always. I was six, and when asked about my future, it was always "college and then...." whatever my current profession was. Now, College is here, and it's so terrifying.
All elusive, all encompasing, the word college has really been intimidating me this summer. From my long coming switch from LCC to UO, to my anger in myself at not taking an AP Science class to allow myself a free year, and start as a sophomore, to this terror and the stress headaches I have been experiencing lately, because of this week.
I stick my head in the sand, just like an ostrich, and hope the world just sweeps me up and takes me away to someplace where I don't have to be responsible for myself.
I can't imagine if I was going away to college. Even as away as OSU... and to think the school I really wanted to go to was University of New Orleans.
I was seriously planning on transfering there in a year or so.
Not happening now.
At this moment, I want to be a vet. To be a vet, I will have to transfer in the next year or so, to a school that has a a vet program. OSU has one, so maybe I will end up there.
It's so scary to think that this limbo I perpetually find myself in is almost over. Maybe everything will change and get better when school starts. Maybe.