why does he have to treat me like this
well after i went and paid my ticket off today i went on to work and i pretty much knew that i wouldn't have to stay up there and work cause it was raining and there was no use in me sitting out side in the rain trying to sell pizzas so i called josh and asked him if i could just go ahead and leave cause i was gonna go up to the college and take my assesment test and sign up for my classes and shit but he told me i had to stay tehre until 4 incase it stopped raining so i stayed there and then when he came in he like totaly ignored me and so iwent up to go ask him about something and before i could even get a word out of my mouth and he looks at me and tells me to go away so i left and didn't say nothing to no one.. but the whole way home i just felt like crying cause that really just hurt my feelings and i can't understand why he has to be this way towards but i mean i know him and donna have been fighting alot lately and he wants to leave her really bad but still when they fight why does he have to take it out on me.. i just dont get it.. but i dont know its really depressing me cause i keep thinking ya know if he does leave her then me and him will finally be able to be togehter and then i start thinking i know he's not gonna come to me he will just keep fucking me just whenever he feels like it and end up with some other chick and i will have to sit back and watch it all and keep it all held up inside of me on how much it bothers me cause ne time i say soemthing to him about me being jealous then he gets pissed off so it just makes me even more miserable i just dont know what to do about all this.. i can't stand to have to try to distance myself from him cause its like there is a part of me missing. that why i can't be happy being with any one else cause i cant have him and only part of me is there.. but that prolly tha way it will always be ill always fall as number 2 when it comes to him..