Finals misery
Lesson of the month: just because a given course of action is appropriate to a situation does NOT mean that it will bring you happiness. In the most difficult of circumstances, it's unlikely it will make you happy at all. But knowing you made a good decision can bring you satisfaction, which in some ways is more stable than happiness.
I feel like I've dealt with nothing but unpleasant situations in the past several weeks, and I have yet to do a single thing that will bring me lasting happiness. Everything has been done with the intention of avoiding misery, and despite the fact that I am certain that I handled everything to the best of my current ability, I really, REALLY need to start something that will bring me joy.
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Finals completed: 1 out of 4. (Turns out I bombed that one, too - I'm walking away with a C in that class.)
Days left in undergraduate degree: 4... but I'm not sure I'm going to feel much better when that's done.
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Okay, there is one thing that's good right now: I am REALLY excited to start work. I just read my job description and it is pretty fucking rad - it actually says that I will be creating and testing mathematical/computational models of neural activity. NERDGASM.
I feel like I've dealt with nothing but unpleasant situations in the past several weeks, and I have yet to do a single thing that will bring me lasting happiness. Everything has been done with the intention of avoiding misery, and despite the fact that I am certain that I handled everything to the best of my current ability, I really, REALLY need to start something that will bring me joy.
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Finals completed: 1 out of 4. (Turns out I bombed that one, too - I'm walking away with a C in that class.)
Days left in undergraduate degree: 4... but I'm not sure I'm going to feel much better when that's done.
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Okay, there is one thing that's good right now: I am REALLY excited to start work. I just read my job description and it is pretty fucking rad - it actually says that I will be creating and testing mathematical/computational models of neural activity. NERDGASM.