New beginnings
Today a routine came to me so naturally. I woke up early to meet Amanda for coffee at 8:30, then went to meditate for an hour at 9am. (Meditation always hits my mind's 'reset' button, which was direly needed.) After sitting, Amanda and I went back to Peet's to discuss the experience with a friend of hers, and then I sat and read a few chapters of The Hours while sipping at my genmaicha. Now it is noon and I feel I can complete this day while maintaining this rare sense of vitality.
One of my friends explained to me me a while ago why she continues to attend Mass every Sunday. Interestingly, it wasn't because of the moral implications that people always refer to when they talk about missing mass, but because "I may not know what I'm doing with my time the rest of my week, but at least I know that I'll be at Mass on Sunday morning." I'm starting to notice the gap in my life, in my routine, where there are no weekly, or daily, rituals to help me keep time. I used to live off of my routine, life seemed so orderly, so straightforward. Now I feel I'm just existing without any set pattern by which to make sense of anything.
So now: meditation, then discussion over coffee, then perhaps some reading on Sunday mornings. Reading for a half-hour or so in the evenings before bed. Anything to bring some degree of regularity to my life, something that's just for me.
One of my friends explained to me me a while ago why she continues to attend Mass every Sunday. Interestingly, it wasn't because of the moral implications that people always refer to when they talk about missing mass, but because "I may not know what I'm doing with my time the rest of my week, but at least I know that I'll be at Mass on Sunday morning." I'm starting to notice the gap in my life, in my routine, where there are no weekly, or daily, rituals to help me keep time. I used to live off of my routine, life seemed so orderly, so straightforward. Now I feel I'm just existing without any set pattern by which to make sense of anything.
So now: meditation, then discussion over coffee, then perhaps some reading on Sunday mornings. Reading for a half-hour or so in the evenings before bed. Anything to bring some degree of regularity to my life, something that's just for me.