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Have I mentioned that I am no longer running dad's office? We closed in down a couple months ago and I am now back in school chasing after a Master's in Family Therapy so I can continue in the legal field as a Family Law Facilitator for Family Court Services.
I love it.
4.0 so far.
My cat died yesterday. I got to hold him and say goodbye and then got in my car and cried for a full ten minutes before I felt comfortable enough to drive home. The worst part about it is that my other cat, his brother, is roaming about the house, calling for his brother. Lol. Who knew I could get this emotional over a cat?
11:17 p.m. - 2008-10-10
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So Mike called to let me know Eli's getting married. It was kind of odd because while I know Mike knows him and Mike knows our history, we rarely talk about him.
There's no real point since we aren't really friends any more. It sucks because I don't really know why.
I thought I was doing the right thing while he was depressed. Calling when I got th chance to leave funny lil messages on his phone... just to let him know I was thinkin about him and that he had a friend.
I slipped up and acted a fool one time. I wasn't sober at the time (wasn't sober that whole year) and I was trying to heal from this rape and he had been more of an older brother to me than my real brothers so I think I was just enraged that I couldn't count on him. I apologized, he supposedly forgave me, but then...nothing.
I am not mad Mike told me. His intention was good. He knows all I want for Eli is happiness. Lord knows he deserves it after all the crap he's been through. So in telling me about him getting married he can share with me that Eli is happy. And in my heart of hearts I know he must be because he wouldn;t be marrying just anyone. And he has been with his fiance for many years.
It just makes me sad that I am not in his life to share the joy. I guess that's pretty selfish, huh?
I love it.
4.0 so far.
My cat died yesterday. I got to hold him and say goodbye and then got in my car and cried for a full ten minutes before I felt comfortable enough to drive home. The worst part about it is that my other cat, his brother, is roaming about the house, calling for his brother. Lol. Who knew I could get this emotional over a cat?
11:17 p.m. - 2008-10-10
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So Mike called to let me know Eli's getting married. It was kind of odd because while I know Mike knows him and Mike knows our history, we rarely talk about him.
There's no real point since we aren't really friends any more. It sucks because I don't really know why.
I thought I was doing the right thing while he was depressed. Calling when I got th chance to leave funny lil messages on his phone... just to let him know I was thinkin about him and that he had a friend.
I slipped up and acted a fool one time. I wasn't sober at the time (wasn't sober that whole year) and I was trying to heal from this rape and he had been more of an older brother to me than my real brothers so I think I was just enraged that I couldn't count on him. I apologized, he supposedly forgave me, but then...nothing.
I am not mad Mike told me. His intention was good. He knows all I want for Eli is happiness. Lord knows he deserves it after all the crap he's been through. So in telling me about him getting married he can share with me that Eli is happy. And in my heart of hearts I know he must be because he wouldn;t be marrying just anyone. And he has been with his fiance for many years.
It just makes me sad that I am not in his life to share the joy. I guess that's pretty selfish, huh?