Disturbiaa

[princelili]

Ok, I'm not going to name and shame with this post like I normally do because it wouldn't be fair. I still don't even know if there's anything wrong or if I'm just so used to expecting it to go tits up after a month or so I'm just sort of wishing it along. I don't get it, he was nice enough last week and stuff and now, after reading something I'd said to someone that wasn't in a nasty way or anything, he's turning into this horrid monster again. Its upsetting because I really do enjoy having him around again. Its refreshing to let it feel like it did before all the drama started, but to be honest I'm waiting for the big crash. Like, when the rumours start creeping around again, or friends of mine being added and lied to.

I'm not exactly upset by the thought of it, I'm just waiting for it to happen so I can deal with it and move on. I'm used to this happening now, Its happened at least twice in the last year so I'm aware of what needs to be done if indeed that's what is happening. I'm just getting tired of all the yo-yoing, I'd rather part on good, or at least neutral, terms and be able to see him around occasionally without wanting to rip his throat out. It would be a nice change, honestly.

I just don't know. I think that if I'm just being paranoid then I'll look at this entry and feel bad. I may even let you in on who it is, if you haven't already worked it out yet ;)