heartfelt
Do you ever feel like sometimes even if you know the person you are with you still feel something is wrong? welcome to my situation......monday night at around 11 i met up with sara in the middle of a field(dont ask why cuz i really dont know)and we just chilled out there and i was truly thinking the whole time i was there. first thing i thought about was all of her previous relationships and how people just used her which really pisses me off because she didnt deserve that.its so hard because she now goes into every relationship fearing the worse because thats all that has happened to her....she even told me that "i know how this will end.....in tears and me being hurt" i was cryin on the inside when i heard that cuz its like i love this girl so much but i cant do anything about the past so its almost impossible to change the way she feels about relationships. i also had her parents on my mind and how thats killin her as well...its funny cuz i went kinda through the same problems....the only difference is that her parents love her and care for her even if they are wrong in some cases(like making her cry).i also had her friends swimming through my mind and how i think i need to get to know them very soon so i can stop worrying about what they think about me.....i really dont care what they think of me but at least i should chill and get to know them to show that i really do love sara and im not just using her(AAAAAHHHHHH, THATS SO FRUSTRATING TO THINK ABOUT)and last was.....me. i have just...just completly fallin for this girl and i cant help it at all....its like i have no control of emotion when im around her. but there is one thing that i remember from monday, when we were on the field there was a hell of a lot of fog and it looked like the fog surronded just me and sara like we were the only people that mattered at that time...ya sounds crazy retarded i know but its just things like that that defines our relationship.who knows maybe she truly is my soulmate....i just wish i found her earler.i know there is one thing she is hiding from me but i only hope its not bad....im just starting to like the rain.