heart pains

[princejewels]

well today slash yesterday was very hard for me,i had two types of butterflies in my stomache. the first tpe was for a friend who has been jumped and almost killed 3 straight times because of who he chills with so of course the crew volenteers to go ahead and make sure nothin happened last night. one member of the crew got threatened that somethin would happen to his girl (cuz we know the guys who jumped my boy) if he said anything to anyone so we all decided to keep our mouth shut(sara...u now know why)so im really trippin at work waitin for 11 to hit and sara askes me to tell her which was really hard cuz im so up front with everything i do with her....so i tried to tell her that i couldnt tell her and she was gettin a little pissed, then she told me that she got into a fight with her best friend and didnt wanna worry about two things(even tho she shouldnt be worrying about anything) and that pissed me off cuz i couldnt help her in any way or call her cuz she dont got her cell phone.so now i have "saras" butterflies in my gut in a bad way.....so anywaay i get to the grad and the guys were over fuckin wit my boy so we went and broke it up.....til someone mentioned saras name. then i just went crazy and went after the kid the crew pulled me off him and we left....im STILL PISSED ABOUT THAT. DONT YOU EVER MENTION MY GIRLS NAME OUT YOUR MOUTH AGAIN. FUCKIN PUNK PUSSY LITTLE BITCH....I WILL FUCK YOU UP BOY!! I havent been this mad since bein back in NYC....ya.so now im home and cant sleep....so i dont think i will....

every little thing i do shes on my mind,the way i feel lately is drivin me crazy...in a good way....but still crazy and ive ran out of ideas for a soultion

and thank you god for gettin me home in one piece and havin the strength to belive in me and my boys