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So i'm back, and i feel really naseous, not really sure why. It sucks because i find it really hard to get work done when i'm sick, just another distraction. (yes work on a friday night...this is not normal, i have the sats tomorrow and i need to study, i'll be a loser for tonight if it helps get me into college)
I just got a call from a friend/ex-friend of mine (it's a little hazy what to define her as at the moment) and she wanted to hangout. I wasn't lying when i said i couldnt go out, but even if i was allowed i don't think i could say yes. This girl put me through a lot, basically destroying the first half of my jr year. I know it wasn't a purposeful, malicious attack, but she screwed me over so many times and i've lost a lot because of her. With the new year she told me she really wished we could start over and i half heartedly agree. It's very hard for me to say no to a person who is insanely apologetic. But now i think i've gotten myself in over my head. I should have never committed to starting over with her again...I dunno this stuff is tricky, and yes it all started over a boy, a really big asshole. I hate that, he wasn't worth it to me or her.
I just got a call from a friend/ex-friend of mine (it's a little hazy what to define her as at the moment) and she wanted to hangout. I wasn't lying when i said i couldnt go out, but even if i was allowed i don't think i could say yes. This girl put me through a lot, basically destroying the first half of my jr year. I know it wasn't a purposeful, malicious attack, but she screwed me over so many times and i've lost a lot because of her. With the new year she told me she really wished we could start over and i half heartedly agree. It's very hard for me to say no to a person who is insanely apologetic. But now i think i've gotten myself in over my head. I should have never committed to starting over with her again...I dunno this stuff is tricky, and yes it all started over a boy, a really big asshole. I hate that, he wasn't worth it to me or her.