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i did what i had to do.
12:45am my time, everyone is asleep. i had to get out to clear my head. i had a huge decision to make. i hadn't been out of my house (excluding a doctor's visit) in a week. i took my mom's keys and my cell phone (the jeep was too loud...) and i left. i drove to windjammer park... but i didn't stay long. i kept driving... windows up. no music. just my thoughts echoing and the sound of silence.
1:50am... i arrived at the park in pineville... the place that i had spent many long, lovely nights over the summer. i knew i could clear my head there. i sat down at that spot. our spot. i needed a sign... i asked Fate and God (i wasn't sure which one was controlling this situation) for a sign. i couldn't make the decisions on my own.
1:54am- right when i asked for a sign... my phone rings. i figured i was dead. my parents must have woken up and noticed that i wasn't there... but no. it wasn't my parents. it was my sign. i couldn't pick up. i couldn't speak at the moment. i was beyond speechless.
1:56am- i got into my car and turned on my 'remember two things' cd. my thinking/confusion was over. the phone rings again. once again, being completely overwhelmed by what just happened, i couldn't answer. if you listen to dmb, and you have 'remember two things'... then you know that ants marching is the 1st song on that cd... i turned it up and sang along.
2:00am- i realized i had a message. i checked it. not only was it a sign, but ants marching was playing in the background; the SAME song i was listening to, and singing along SO happily to. coincidence? all i know is that things like this don't happen on a regular basis. i came straight home, came in quietly, and went back to sleep-- completely unnoticed...
...and completely confident.
i'm so glad that my work is done. i thought it was going to be a long night in which i searched for answers and came home confused, but it wasn't. it was exactly what i asked for... exactly what i needed.
trust fate. follow your heart. i swear it makes things so much easier.
12:45am my time, everyone is asleep. i had to get out to clear my head. i had a huge decision to make. i hadn't been out of my house (excluding a doctor's visit) in a week. i took my mom's keys and my cell phone (the jeep was too loud...) and i left. i drove to windjammer park... but i didn't stay long. i kept driving... windows up. no music. just my thoughts echoing and the sound of silence.
1:50am... i arrived at the park in pineville... the place that i had spent many long, lovely nights over the summer. i knew i could clear my head there. i sat down at that spot. our spot. i needed a sign... i asked Fate and God (i wasn't sure which one was controlling this situation) for a sign. i couldn't make the decisions on my own.
1:54am- right when i asked for a sign... my phone rings. i figured i was dead. my parents must have woken up and noticed that i wasn't there... but no. it wasn't my parents. it was my sign. i couldn't pick up. i couldn't speak at the moment. i was beyond speechless.
1:56am- i got into my car and turned on my 'remember two things' cd. my thinking/confusion was over. the phone rings again. once again, being completely overwhelmed by what just happened, i couldn't answer. if you listen to dmb, and you have 'remember two things'... then you know that ants marching is the 1st song on that cd... i turned it up and sang along.
2:00am- i realized i had a message. i checked it. not only was it a sign, but ants marching was playing in the background; the SAME song i was listening to, and singing along SO happily to. coincidence? all i know is that things like this don't happen on a regular basis. i came straight home, came in quietly, and went back to sleep-- completely unnoticed...
...and completely confident.
i'm so glad that my work is done. i thought it was going to be a long night in which i searched for answers and came home confused, but it wasn't. it was exactly what i asked for... exactly what i needed.
trust fate. follow your heart. i swear it makes things so much easier.