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okay, sat. was my graduation reunion party at the farm. and me and david went. and everything was going good til there was word of shaggy coming too.... and i didnt want the drama.... and lets say, a bottle and a hlf of boones farm and chugging bacardi orange later... i remember waking up in the tent with david. i didnt remember any of it.apparently i was puking all over myself and everything. and a day later david told me i was begging for him to marry me.... crazy! i remember thinking i would marry him. but i didnt think that i said it out loud.lol. apparently i did! oh well. i made an ass out of myself. even in a sober state i told him the offer still stands. it made his night when i did that. the next morning i even puked in his front yard... then we went to kings dominion...................jamie still calls me apologizing for everything that happened. stating he is a changed man and he should have married me and had kids. and things will be different if i just give him a second chance. but,stupidly i tried to give him a second chance even after finding a girl in his bed and the emotional abuse after that....sometimes enough is just, enough. he came around too late. i am with david. and david makes me feel better then he ever did. why would i go back? besides, i wouldnt do that to david. i am over shaggy. he burned this bridge. ever since david looked up from the white car at his shop when he was buffin it i knew i was hooked. love at first sight? and this isnt your immature, young i think i know what love is type thing. this just felt, real. and i knew the first time he held me in his arms. it was real and this is what love feels like. you know, when just looking in your eyes then kissing you gently sends chills all throughout your body and makes you want to just collapse at the knees.. leaving you breathless.. the thought of him when he isnt there makes me happy. and gives me this wierd feeling inside. something i have never had before. laying in bed with him at night listening to his heartbeat and his arms around me just fills overwhelms me with comfort and the feeling of safety. OH! and when he sings to songs when we are in the car! i love that. i dont know why. i just love it. just hearing him makes me all happy inside....now, i've always told myself.. if i find a guy that will turn on slow music and have candles burning and take me by the hand and slow dance i will marry them right at the spot. i know, im cheesy... i dont know what has come over me. IT'S WIERD!